Little Haruna Diary

Pretty Diary 5

2006-05-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

If you read Pretty Diary 2, this fanfic is the sequel of it. Yamapi....
This fanfic is taken from LOVE SONG.

Chapter 1

Akane sighed for the second time, and glanced at the clock on her table, it was exactly 5 minutes before midnight. They supposed to celebrate their 6th months anniversary very soon, but instead of being together with her boyfriend on their special day, she was alone in her flat that night. She didn’t remind him for that, hoping that he could remember it himself, but she was sure with his busy schedules between study and work, he wouldn’t remember it, or maybe he wouldn’t care for it. She sighed again, and it’s already midnight. “Happy 6th months anniversary, Pi-chan!” she whispered to herself.

She looked at the small frame near the clock, with a cute purikura of them together, she smiled, it was a sweet moment back then. They have just been together for like 2 weeks, and after their first real date, he asked her to take a purikura, she refused, she wasn’t a type of girl who loved taking pictures, but he forced her and actually dragged her to the purikura machine. She wasn’t sure what to do, because it was actually her first time ever to take picture in purikura machine! He did everything by himself, like choosing the background and all. And when the machine told them to get ready, he whispered to her ear, “Akane, I want to memorize this special day, so please give me your sweetest smile!” then he grabbed her into his embrace. The picture turned out really good, they both smiling and looking so happy together. He keeps one in his wallet, and she also put another one in her agenda. It was their only picture together ever.

She wasn’t sure whether to call or mail him about the anniversary or not. He might be sleeping already. With his tight schedules, they couldn’t meet up as often as they wanted, and she understood that. Sometimes twice a week or even only once! She’s at her final year in Meiji University, she’s working on her thesis now, therefore she rarely went to Uni, so they usually only met up in the weekends. She wished that he could take a few day-off from his work, but she couldn’t be that selfish, she knew that he loves his job very much. At the end, she decided not to bother him, though she hoped that he would call or mail her that night, but after waited for like a hour, she gave up. She looked at the frame again, whispered, “Oyasuminasai, Pi-chan!” and turned off the light.

2 days later …

“Yappari, he didn’t remember our anniversary … “ Akane spoke to herself on they way to Yamapi’s apartment. No call, no mail, whatsoever! She kinda disappointed, but then she tried to calm herself, “C’mon Akane, it’s only 6th months anniversary! He must be really busy this week so he forgot it.” She tried to not make big deal of it.

She walked and finally reached the door, it was locked, she knocked few times, no answer. She took out the key that Yamapi gave her on their 1st month anniversary, yup they did celebrate that! The key attached with the cute Doraemon keychain, she sometimes laughed at her boyfriend, coz he’s almost 20 years old, but yet still obsessed with Doraemon! She inserted the key, turned it right and the door was opened. She could hear the shower noise from the bathroom.

“Hey Pi, are you in the shower?” shouted Akane after she took off her coat and shoes.

“Yes, I’m almost done, please wait, will ya?” replied him from the bathroom.

His apartment isn’t big but comfortable enough, she loved to spend times observing his place. She loved especially the big sofa they often used to watch DVD with his big flat screen TV. Yamapi used to live with his mother and sister until he got accepted in Meiji University. Sometimes Akane helped him to clean up and re-arrange the furniture, she often teased him, “Whoah, you need to pay me extra to be your maid!” But actually she loved to do all the things for his apartment, it’s like her 2nd home.

She entered the bedroom, and sighed, the bed sheet was messy, clothes were everywhere. “Pi Pi, what are you gonna do without me?” whispered Akane. She started cleaning the room, and in the outside the rain started to fall heavily. They supposed to have dinner with Koyama and Miharu. She watched the rain outside and thought, “Damn, we will definitely late! Must mail Miharu about the rain!” she took out her keitai, opened it, and the screen was pure black, the battery was out! “Shit, am I being cursed today?” she frowned. She looked around the room and found Yamapi’s keitai on the side table. She doubted whether to use it or not, she knew that it’s not polite to look around someone else’s phone, even if it’s his boyfriend! But she has no other choice, she opened the keitai, and smiled to see the Doraemon wallpaper inside. “The story of my life, must share my boyfriend with an anime character.” she said to herself. She opened the mailbox and before writing the new message, suddenly a new mail was coming in!

She hesitated to open it, but thought maybe it’s from Koyama. So she opened it and was dead surprised to see the message! It was short, simple, but really hurt her! She couldn’t believe Yamapi was cheating on her on their anniversary! Her mind was full with questions, “Why? Why? Why?” and so she couldn’t think clear and asked for explanation. She grabbed her coat and run out the apartment, in the midst of rain, her tears fell down.

Chapter 2

Yamapi didn’t realize that Akane already left the apartment, he walked out from the bathroom, only wore his jeans and towel around his neck, he still dried the hair when he reached the bedroom, no sign of Akane.

“Akane?” he looked around the apartment, and still no sign of her.

“Strange!” he rolled his eyes and found his keitai was opened on the bed. He grabbed the phone and read the message, it was from his ex-girlfriend Mika. He suddenly understood why Akane left the apartment without telling him.

“Damn, she must think the wrong idea about this mail!” murmured Yamapi.

He put on his shirt, grabbed the jacket and went out to search her. He had no idea where she could be, he called Koyama and Miharu and both of them didn’t know her whereabouts too! He started reaching her phone also, but the operator machine kept saying that the number was either inactive or outside the service area. He felt frustration again. It’s like the time was running back in the past, he knew how fragile she was.

He met up with Koyama and Miharu at the restaurant where they supposed to meet, it was dark already and the rain was still falling like cats and dogs.

“Yo Pi, still no news about Akane?” worried Koyama, his group mate in NEWS.

“Yes, I’m worried about her too! Her phone is inactive!” added Miharu, Koyama’s girlfriend who is also Akane’s best friend.

“Nope! I still can’t reach her! I think she’s gone after she accidentally read this mail!” he showed her keitai to his friends, they read the message and both of them nodded as the sign of agreement for his guess.

“Ahh, poor girl! She thought you were cheating on him!” sighed Miharu.

“But I didn’t cheat on her! Mika only asked me to help her choose birthday present for her fiancée!” retorted Yamapi.

“Well, she didn’t know that! Beside why you didn’t tell her before she found that mail? I would have the wrong idea myself if Kei-chan got mail from another girl with that kind of message!” argued Miharu.

“It’s because I haven’t got a chance to do it!” replied Yamapi.

“That’s lame, no excuse for that!” barked Miharu back.

“GUYS STOP IT! It’s no point to argue in here! We better start look out for her before anything bad happen to her!” Koyama tried to calm the situation.

“Yeah right, gomen ne Miharu, I wasn’t thinking.” said Yamapi apologetically.

“Me too, I was a bit carried away, it’s because I’m so worried about her.” sighed Miharu.

“We all do! So Pi try that way, Miharu and me will go this way!” pointed Koyama. And so they parted to search her

Akane kept walking under the rain until her feet started to shake and she couldn’t walk any longer, she was soaking wet from her hair to her shoes. She sat on the bench of a park, and tears still fell down from her eyes. Her mind was remembering the message from Yamapi’s keitai. It was a short simple message written like this, “Pi-chan, thanx so much for yesterday, you are the best! Mika” not to forget the little red heart shape before the name of that girl.

“Akane?” a familiar voice was heard. She lifted her head to see the person that called her.

“Ryo-chan!” surprised Akane, her eyes widened.

“Ohisashiburi! What are you doing in here under the rain? Where is Yamapi?” smiled Ryo and put the umbrella upper her head.

“I don’t want to talk about him!” Akane shook her head like 5 years old girl. Ryo raised his eyebrow, “Are they fighting or something?” guessed him in his mind.

“Ok, but you have to dry yourself now, or else you will get sick! Tell you what? My hotel is only a block away, you can clean up there, I will lend you clothes,” suggested Ryo.

“No need, I don’t care for the rain!” refused Akane.

“Well, I care for you, I don’t want you to get sick, so let’s go!” persisted Ryo and grabbed her hand to follow him.

Akane walked in lazy steps, Ryo tried to cheer her up with his jokes but she still wasn’t smiling even a bit. She’s back to her worst personality ever, rude and cold. They entered the hotel lobby, Ryo nodded to the room boy who stood there, he passed the umbrella to him and pushed Akane inside the lift elevator.

“Here are towel and clean clothes, I have turned the hot water in the bathtub for you! Now clean your self!” ordered Ryo to Akane as they got inside his room. She didn’t say anything, just received the stuff Ryo handed to her and walked to the bathroom. Ryo looked up his hotel room, he’s been staying there for almost a month for NEWS fuyucon and SHOCK musical, but that day was the last day of his part in SHOCK, tomorrow Tsubasa-kun will replace him, so he could pack up and return to his home in Osaka.

30 minutes later …

Akane went out from the bathroom, she wore Ryo’s clothes already, it’s look funny as his clothes were a bit bigger for her.

“Ahhh, you look great with my clothes, Akane! If you cut your hair, you could try and join Johnny’s Jimusho!” joked Ryo.

She still didn’t say any words from her mouth, her expression was cold. Ryo knew that it’s not time for joking around, and started serious conversation with her.

“Akane, doushite? You can tell me anything, don’t keep it to yourself!” asked Ryo. Akane looked at him, and finally she said something.

“Why man is such a jerk? Can you explain?” Ryo wasn’t expecting her to say those rude words. Even if he often said rude things from his evil tongue, her words still surprised him.

“What man? Can you describe more specifically?” puzzled Ryo.

“Well, Yamapi that is!” replied her in high tone.

“What about him? He did something bad to you?” he asked curiously.

“I don’t want to talk about it!”

“Akane please, how am I supposed to help if you didn’t want to open up with me? C’mon, we are friends right? We even used to be more than that!” pleaded Ryo.

Akane sighed, yeah, before she went out with Yamapi, she was dating Ryo first, it’s because Ryo reminded her so much of her late boyfriend who died in an accident. But later she realized that she loved Yamapi more, and Ryo was really nice to her, it’s not fair to be rude to him after everything he has done for her.

“Sorry Ryo-chan, I was being rude to you. I think Yamapi was cheating on me on our 6th months anniversary,” her voice started to shake.

“Eeeeehhh? Yamapi? It can’t be! He’s not that type of guy!” denied Ryo, he knew Yamapi very well, they were grown up together, even both of them lived in different towns, they never lost touch.

“I have evidence! I saw the girl’s message for him! That Mika girl wrote something like thanx so much for yesterday, you are the best!” sulked Akane.

“Mika? I know her!” chuckled Ryo. “She is Yamapi’s ex-girlfriend, but no worries, they separated in good way, she’s engaged with a business man now if I’m not mistaken. I’m not sure about what she referred to, but you better confirm with Pi-chan first before you ended up accusing him to cheat on you.”

“Really? But why he never told me about her? And why he didn’t explain if he’s gone out with her at the first place? Why I must find out from that cheap mail?” demanded Akane furiously.

“Hey hey, I’m not Yamapi! Wrong target!” calmed Ryo.

“Yeah sorry, I was being jealous! Maybe you are right. I should have asked his explanation first.” Akane started to realize how childish she was. It’s not the first time they ever been in a fight, and they always sorted things out, but they never had any 3rd party issue, that’s why the whole thing made her lost her clear mind, deep inside she regretted her childish act, but she was still angry that Yamapi didn’t tell her anything about Mika. “Why he had to hide that he met her on our anniversary?”

“Calm already? I know you still have lots of questions, but I can’t answer them, you better talk heart to heart with Pi-chan. Now let’s go, I have to take you home, it’s getting late,” smiled Ryo and offered his hand to Akane.

Akane replied his smile and said, “Thanx Ryo-chan, you are really nice! I will return your clothes later.”

“No need, you can keep them, it’s a souvenir from me.” joked Ryo and made Akane’s smile widened.

They walked out the hotel without realizing a pair of eyes were watching them and followed with sound of click, click, click, capturing every single movement they made.

Ryo walked Akane home, and at the door, he smiled and said, “Don’t worry too much, just confirm with Pi ok? I will leave the city tomorrow morning, so take care ne?”

“Thanx again, Ryo-chan!” replied Akane and hugged him. She knew that she always can rely on him. She waved her hand and watched him walked out the flat. She took a deep breath and inserted the key and opened the door. “Home sweet home!” she whispered as if she already left the place for a long time! She loved this flat, it’s small but very cozy for her. She already rented this place since she moved back to Japan.

She changed the clothes to her pajamas, she was really tired. It was a hard day for her, and she just remembered that she hadn’t eaten anything yet, but she didn’t feel hungry at all. She just wanted to rest and sleep. But she knew that she must make some calls first, everyone must be worried about her. She re-charged her mobile phone, and opened the flip. She got shot with tons of mails and missed calls. She didn’t bother to read any mails, just opened the address book and started to make some calls.

“Moshi-moshi, Miharu-chan?”

“OMG, Akane? Are you alright? Where are you? We are really worried!” answered Miharu in panic way.

“Daijoubu yo! I’m at home already! Gomen ne to make all you worried.”

“Yokatta ne! Listen, I know Yamapi should explain it himself, but you got the wrong idea about the mail, that girl only asked him to help her find birthday present for her fiancée, nothing more!”

“Yeah, I didn’t think clearly today. It’s ok, Miharu! Thanx for explaining, I will call Pi after this! Send my regards to Koyama ok? Take care!”

“You take care yourself, oyasumi!”

“Oyasuminasai!” ended Akane.

“Ryo-chan was right! Yamapi wouldn’t have cheated on me, I was so stupid!” she mumbled to herself. She dialed Yamapi’s number now, and waited for the connecting tone.

“Akane? Where are you?” as Yamapi saw the name on the screen.

“I’m at home already! Don’t worry about me! Sorry to make you worried!”

“I will come to your place now!”

“No need, I’m fine! I need some space alone tonight, hope you will understand. And Miharu already explained about the mail, sorry I was so stupid and thought you were cheating on me.”

“I’m also sorry for not explaining to you earlier, Mika is nothing to me, you are the most important person in my life now!”

“But why you never told me about her? I told you everything about Takashi!”

“Uhm well, I think it’s not important, it’s all in the past Akane, we have to move on! Beside you don’t need to get jealous of her, she will get married very soon, I only helped her to choose birthday present for her fiancée, that’s all!”

“But you took her out on our anniversary …” she mumbled.

“Ehhh? What?” he didn’t catch what she was saying.

“Iie, nande mo nai! I want to sleep now, so I will see you tomorrow ok?”

“Alright! Dream of me tonight! Oyasuminasai!”

“Oyasumi,” she closed her keitai and smiled at his last words, he could be such a darling sometimes. She turned off the light and rested her head on the pillow, “Though day, hope everything will be alright again!” she said to herself before closed her eyes.

Chapter 3

Yamapi was in his bad mood ever, his face was in rage and he was holding a tabloid in his hand, he parked his car outside Akane’s flat and rushed walked upstairs to her room. He banged the door loudly.

“Oh hi Pi, so early!” welcomed Akane with a smile. But Yamapi wasn’t smiling back, instead he pushed her inside and closed the door. Akane was confused at his rude behavior and wondered why he was in such a bad mood. In fact she never has seen him with so angry face like this before. They starred at each other, later he handed the tabloid to her in rude way.

“Explain this!” demanded him.

Akane glared at him, but she opened the tabloid and on the front page she found a big article with some pictures of her and Ryo in front of his hotel last night! Her eyes were covered with black line, but it’s her! And the headline was written, “IDOL NISHIKIDO RYO WAS CAUGHT WITH A GIRL OUTSIDE THE HOTEL!!” and the articles below was all craps saying that Ryo was dating this mysterious girl. She was so mad reading the articles, and couldn’t believe they were caught by paparazzi last night. And now Yamapi must have a wrong idea about this! “Shit! Is it a karma?” she thought to herself.

“Well? What can you explain about it?” Yamapi crossed his hands on his chest and glared at Akane with furious look.

“This is all crap, I can’t believe you didn’t trust me!” answered Akane and threw back the tabloid to him.

“Akane, this pictures showed everything! It’s definitely you, I can recognize the necklace! And it’s Ryo’s clothes that you were wearing! I know that shirt, I have the same one with different printed design as we bought them together in Shibuya!”

“Yes, I was at his hotel last night, but it wasn’t what you are thinking!”

“C’mon Akane, don’t lie to me! I know that you still have crush on him, right? Coz he looks like your late boyfriend!”

“It has nothing to do with it!” replied Akane coldly.

“You slept with him, didn’t you?” accused Yamapi and made Akane felt as she just got slapped at her face. She couldn’t take it any longer, she disappointed that he didn’t trust her.

“Is that what you are thinking? That I’m such a cheap girl who sleep around with your friends?”

“Well, like I said pictures can explain everything!” his jealously toward Ryo made him completely lost his mind.

“Fine, if you said so! Yes, I slept with him, are you happy now?” snapped Akane. She thought it’s no way to convince him right now, he wouldn’t believe anything she said anyway.

“I can’t believe this Akane! I thought you loved me! That’s it, we are over!”

“Fine! Whatever! Now get out from my flat!” she pushed him out and locked the door. She stood behind the door, lifted his head up, and cried. Both of them were so stubborn and Yamapi didn’t try to get back inside. Instead, he walked to his car, and released his anger to the steer wheel!

Akane stopped her sobbing, and realized that it’s all over between them now! After 6 months, their relationship just ended like that because the misunderstanding and stupid tabloid. She grabbed the tabloid and ripped it into pieces. She made up her mind, she looked out her keitai and wrote the last message to him, “Pi, I love you, but we can’t be together if there’s no trust between us! We shouldn’t meet again as we will only hurt each other, good luck for everything! Take care yourself!”

Akane took the last look at her flat, she already packed all her stuff and sent them to her new place, she only had her bag and coat in her hands. “I loved this place, it’s a pity that I have to leave now!” she mumbled herself. She was really sad at the separation, and she thought that she couldn’t face Yamapi anymore, everything he said really hurt her inside. He didn’t try to apologize whatsoever so she thought they really broke up for good.

She went downstairs and as she was about to return her keys to the landlord, she also accidentally pulled out Yamapi’s key to his apartment. She looked at the big grin that Doraemon had in his face. “What are you looking at? Stupid Doraemon!” murmured her in her mind. “I don’t need this anymore!” she was about to throw away the keychain when the landlord opened the door, so she put it back to her bag and talked with the landlord for a while.

After that, Akane walked out the flat and sighed, “Goodbye! Sorry for being coward like this! But I just want to move on with my life and forget him. Guess I have bad luck in love, every person that I love the most left me. So I want to start a new life in a new place. Thanx for sticking with me all this years.” she waved for the last time and stopped a taxi to her new flat. She didn’t tell anyone that she was moving not even to her best friend Miharu.

2 weeks later …

Yamapi drove his car to the Johnny’s Building, it would be the first time to meet the other NEWS members after the winter break. They would have recorded a new song for the upcoming new single. He wasn’t sure what will happen if he saw Ryo, he was still mad for that article in the tabloid. And he didn’t confirm to him yet, maybe it’s time for me to deal with him now, he thought to himself.

He entered the meeting room, his mood was not good, he didn’t say a word just nodded to Tegoshi and Massu who were in the room already and welcomed him. He walked to the chair and sat in the corner, tried to make himself busy with the newspaper. Tegoshi and Massu exchanged looks and they both raised their shoulders and decided not to bother him.

Later the triple K walked in the room, Kusano and Shige exchanged high five with Tegoshi and Massu. Koyama greeted them and walked to Yamapi. He was worried over the tabloid and he never get any replied from Yamapi each time he mailed or called him.

“Hey Pi, ohisashiburi ne? Genki desu ka?” greeted Koyama with his usual cheerful smile.

Yamapi lifted his head and replied shortly, “Hi, I’m ok!”

“I know it’s not my business, but how are things between you and Akane? I read the tabloid, and it’s all rubbish!”

“Koyama, I really don’t want to talk about it! Beside it’s time for work not personal matters.” Yamapi replied in rude way.

“Oh ok!” surprised Koyama at his respond. He stepped back and wondered why Yamapi was in a bad mood. He and Miharu weren’t able to contact Akane either, therefore he didn’t know what’s going on.

So he joined the other NEWS members to chit-chat, and soon after their manager came in together with Uchi and Ryo who were coming all the way from Osaka. They grinned at their band mates and sat in the meeting chairs, Yamapi joined them. Their manager took out some papers and explained about the new single, Cherish was the title, they would record the song on the next day. All NEWS members sounded excited for the new single except Yamapi who went silent in the meeting. He tried to concentrate and followed what the manager has said. But his mind was in other place, he glared at Ryo with anger, and of course Ryo noticed that.

1 hour later …

“Hai, that’s all for today, remember not to be late at the recording, minna!” ended the manager and smiled specifically to Shige and Kusano.

“Hai hai, wakatta!” blushed Shige. The poor boy often arrived late beyond his expectations, but lately his bad habit has decreased.

“Ore mo!” grinned Kusano, he often took the wrong train without he realized it.

Soon after the manager left the room, Ryo felt a tap on his shoulder, it was from Yamapi!

“Ryo, do you have time? I need some words with you!” still in cold expression.

“Oh ok, where? Here?” replied Ryo.

Yamapi looked around and the other NEWS members realized that they have to stay away from the room, they soon excused themselves and left only Yamapi and Ryo in there.

“Ok, no more disturbers, what do you want to talk about?” asked Ryo. He was sure that Yamapi was gonna talk about the article in that tabloid.

“Don’t act innocent! You know what I’m gonna say, about that article of course!” blurted out Yamapi.

“C’mon Pi, I’m tired of this, I already explained it to our manager and I also have to do that to you, why you don’t ask Akane instead?”

“I already did, and her respond hurt me into pieces! You slept with her right?”

Ryo shocked at his last words, he raised his eyebrow and pushed out a fist to Yamapi’s stomach.

“That’s my answer for your question! I can’t believe you don’t trust her like that!”

Yamapi bent on the floor, nursing the pain that caused from the punch Ryo just gave him. He stood up and was about to punch back but Ryo held back his hand and said, “You want my explanation? Listen, I just helped her when I found her soaking wet under the rain near the park of my hotel! We did nothing!” exclaimed Ryo.

Yamapi stopped at his action and surprised expression was drawing on his face.

“Ehh, but she was wearing your clothes!”

“AHO! Do you think she brought extra clothes with her when she ran away from your apartment?”

“Oh gawd, but why she didn’t deny when I asked if she slept with you?”

“Are you out of your mind? Didn’t you realize that question hurt her? Maybe she was tired with your blind jealously!”

“Kuso! So nothing happened?”

“Nothing, zip, nada! We just talked, I even calmed her and explained that you and Mika were totally over! Beside is that what you think of me? Even if I still loved her, I will never betray our friendship just like that!”

“Shit! I made the stupid thing in my whole life! I dumped her!” regretted Yamapi in frustration.

“Well, sorry to hear that, dude! It’s your fault for not thinking clearly and confirmed with me first.”

“Ryo-chan, what should I do now?”

“I don’t know, beg for her forgiveness maybe? You still love her, don’t you?”

Yamapi nodded, “Yes, I love her more than anything! Now I lost her!”

“Nothing is late, go find her! And sorry for the punch!”

“Iie, don’t worry, I deserved that! Also sorry for not trusting you! I have to find her now! Bye Ryo-chan!”

“Bye Pi-chan! And Good luck!” as Ryo saw Yamapi run out from the door.

Yamapi tried to reach Akane on the phone, but he kept getting the operator machine saying that the owner was no longer used that number. He closed his keitai in frustration! He parked his car in front of Akane’s flat, he walked fast to her room, knocked the door, no answer.

“Akane? Akane? Are you inside?” he repeated and banged the door. Still no answer.

“Anoo, are you looking for Akane Haneda?” suddenly a door in front of her room opened and a middle age woman came out.

“Yes, is she at home now?” replied Yamapi.

“She just moved 2 weeks ago, so the flat is empty.”

“Ehhh? Moved? How? Where?” panicked Yamapi.

“Sorry, I have no idea, you can ask the landlord downstairs.”

“Thanx mam!” ended Yamapi and run downstairs to find the landlord.

5 minutes later, he walked out to his car with disappointed look on his face. The landlord also didn’t know where she moved, he said that she didn’t leave any forwarding address. He took out the car alarm key and opened the door, he sighed, “Akane, where are you?”

He never felt guilty like this in his entire life, he accused her cheating on him, he didn’t trust her and regretted every single harsh word he ever said to her. He wanted her back, but now he lost her … again!

Chapter 4

Yamapi woke up and turned his head to the left side of his bed in reflect. Empty. He sighed, he was hoping everything was only a dream, a bad dream, or even nightmare, but he faced reality now. He knew that there was no reason for her to be there, he remembered how she sometimes slept over at his place during weekends. He looked around his room, cold, no more warmth touch from her.

He tried to forget her, but he couldn’t. He kept remembering the happy times they were together, the first time he ever saw her in that coffee shop, the first kiss in the beach, where they both confessed their love to each other. The first date where they took the only picture of them together in a purikura machine, the first holiday together in an onsen, all were sweet and unforgettable. He didn’t realized how important she was to him back then, and now they are no longer together. His heart was in pain each time he thought of her.

“Akane, I’m sorry! Will you forgive me?” whispered him as he looked at their purikura picture. And without he realized it, he started to cry.

NEWS were busy promoting their new single, they appeared in Music Station, Utaban, Music Fighter, Shounen Club, etc. Yamapi tried his best to smile and didn’t show up his sorrow inside.

Miharu waited for Koyama in NHK Hall lobby, and once Yamapi saw her, he run to her and grabbed her hand.

“Miharu, tell me where Akane is!” begged him.

“Let go of my hand, even if I know her new place, I will never tell you, baka!” as she snapped his hand and glared at him furiously.

“Miharu, what’s wrong?” asked Koyama who just appeared.

“Well, this idiot has the nerve to ask Akane’s whereabouts to me! After he dumped her!”

“Miharu please, I know I was stupid, but it was misunderstanding and I already realized my mistake, I want to apologize to her!”

“Sorry Pi, I really don’t know where she moved, and she also never contacted me either, see how you also ruined our friendship!” she started to cry. Koyama tried to calm her and hugged her to his chest.

“Yeah Pi, sorry but you have to leave her alone this time. She’s not ready to see you again. We can’t help you.” regretted Koyama.

“Ok, I understand, I deserved that. But please if you guys ever see her again, please let her know that I miss her and want to talk to her.”

“We will.” promised Koyama.

“No way, I don’t want her to get hurt again!” exclaimed Miharu.

“Miharu, I promise you that I will never hurt her ever again!” frustrated Yamapi.

“Nee Pi, no worries, I will convince her, now we have to go! See ya!” ended Koyama. He knew how stubborn Miharu was, so arguing with her was a waste of time, he would wait her to calm first then persuade her later.

“Ok thanx Koyama, bye Miharu.” she didn’t say anything, just rolled her eyes and left the NHK Hall building with Koyama.

Yamapi sighed, “Even Miharu hates me now! Way to go Pi, see how mess you make!”

“What mess? Hey Pi, wanna go out for a blind date with us?” bounced Jin, who was clueless with everything, followed with the rest of KAT-TUN behind him.

“Omiai? Sorry not interested!” replied Yamapi shortly and left them.

“Ehh, it’s the first time Yamapi stood me up!” cried Jin.

“Baka! Stop acting like a rabu-rabu couple!” Kame whacked his head.

“Ittai! What I did wrong? Piii, wait for me!” Jin chased Yamapi.

Akane glanced at the TV in her new place, it was showing NEWS on Utaban. She saw how tired Yamapi was, his face was thinner than before, she concerned with his health. She was happy that he managed to answer few questions in ”Aru to Nai” IQ games and rewarded with delicious expensive foods. She smiled when she saw Kusano chased Nakai to whisper him the answer. She laughed when Ryo complained and told the winners to eat faster. “So typical Ryo-chan!” she chuckled. She was sorry to see that Massu didn’t manage to win any food rewards, and was surprised to see how smart Shige was, as he managed to answer all questions. She has met all of NEWS members occasionally, but she was closer with Koyama, Ryo and Uchi. She loved Tegoshi tho, and often joked to Yamapi and said how she wanted to adopt him as her younger brother, and Yamapi just laughed at her.

“How I miss them all, especially him!” sighed Akane while the camera was focusing on Yamapi’s face while they performed “Cherish”.

She followed the lyrics in the screen and started to sing along, she loved the song since the first time she heard it. She never cared with music world, but once for a while she listened to NEWS’ songs and other JE songs. She continued singing the chorus,

Itsumeru tabi ni koi kanjita mama hitomi [Everytime I gaze, I can feel love in these eyes]
Nozokitakute sunao ni natte koko de matteru no sa [I want to peep and become true to myself I'm waiting here]
Mitsumeru tabi ni koi mayoi mo kage mo nai [Everytime I gaze, this love is without doubts or shadow]
Kimi no egao de boku no ai de [With your smile and my love]
Bokura dake no yume wo sagasou [ Let's search for our dreams together]

“Such a beautiful love song, with many sweet promises and all.” whispered Akane to herself. “Am I too stubborn? Did he deserve all this? We should sort our problem out, talk about it and deal with it, but instead I run away.” She knew deep inside that she still loved him and already forgive him.

Chapter 5

Yamapi walked in the street with lazy steps, he never felt so lonely like this before. He tried to spend time with his best friends, but it didn’t feel the same, he often wandered around the beach, blamed himself for being so stupid and stubborn, he lost the love of his life just because he didn’t trust her enough, he kept reading the last message that Akane sent to him on the day he dumped her. He just ignored the message when he received it, and only read after Ryo explained that nothing happened between them in that hotel. But it was all too late, he couldn’t reach her now.

All the sudden, a new mail was coming in, it was from Miharu.

“Where are you? I still don’t think you deserve this, but Koyama convinced me how miserable your life without Akane, so you can try to meet her in Haven Coffee Shop in Setagaya Street. Good Luck!”

He almost fell down the street by that surprise message, he kissed his keitai, whispered, “Ariagatou Miharu-chan!” Then realized that Haven Coffee Shop sounded someway familiar to him, he tried to remember where he has seen the sign name of that place, and after few seconds, he whacked his own forehead and shrieked, “Baka! That’s the same coffee shop where I saw her for the first time last year! How on earth I forgot that place!”

He glimpsed that his watch, it’s almost 7 pm, he wasn’t sure if her habit was still the same or not, but he knew well that she usually left that place around 8 pm last year.

“Yabaii! I hope I’m not too late!” he shrieked again and stopped for a taxi. He was in another side of Tokyo, and if he was lucky, he would reach that coffee shop before 8 pm.

“Hayaku! Hayaku!” he ordered the taxi driver to drive faster. The ojisan-driver just rolled his eyes, and wondered why this costumer was really anxious and so hurry. He raised his shoulder and thought maybe he was late for a date.

Akane stretched her body backwards and let out a sigh of relief. She forgot how calm she was at this cozy place when she just lost her boyfriend by an accident last year. She loved to spend time hanging out at this peaceful coffee shop and reading her favorite books. She started back her old habit since last week and sometimes she invited Miharu along, and made her promised not to tell anyone especially Yamapi about it. She still wasn’t sure about her feeling. She knew that she already forgive him, but she was still afraid to face him right now. She still needed more time, and Miharu understood that.

The coffee shop was only occupied with few costumers, she noticed that she was the only girl that day. The other costumers were three business men who were animatedly talking about their business. She saw the owner and a waiter inside the long coffee table, busy cleaning up the cups and glasses.

She was reading a new English book titled “Da Vinci Codes” by Dan Brown, she was still in a good mood to finish this interesting thick book, she loved fictions especially the ones that needed some work of her brain. She enjoyed the book so far.

“Hai, this is Setagaya Street!” said the taxi driver as he looked behind the costumer seat.

“Here, keep the change!” Yamapi handed some money and went out the taxi hurriedly.

“Yappari, he’s late for a date!” smiled the driver and kissed at the big tip Yamapi left for him.

Yamapi walked as fast as he could and tried his best to remember the coffee shop, he found that place accidentally last year when he had filmed “Sore wa totzunen arashi no you ni” and he never visited that place again after the filming was over. He was still whacking his own head for not realized that she could be back to her old habit earlier.

He smiled when he saw the sign of “Haven Coffee Shop” at the corner of the street. That place hasn’t changed much. He walked faster and opened the door, the owner remembered him and welcomed him with a warm smile. He nodded and searched for her around the place. He specifically spotted the table where Akane used to sit daily last year, but no one was there. The waiter just about to clean up the table, she picked the empty cup and about to place it in the tray when she heard someone at his back spoke to her.

“Anoo, who sat in this table just now?” asked Yamapi.

“Oh wow, are you Yamapi from NEWS?” the waiter just ignored his question and got a star struck, she couldn’t believe her luck, she met Yamapi at her new work place, she just started the job last month.

“Uhm yes …” he hesitated to answer.

“OMG, can I shake your hand and get your autograph?” excited the waiter. Then the owner who watched the whole incident from his place just gave a deep “Ahem, ahem”

“Oops, I forget that I’m still working! Michi desu, so nice to meet you!” as she started shake his hand excitedly.

Yamapi nodded and asked the same question, “Uhm, can you tell me who sat in this table before?”

“Oh, a girl with black shoulder length hair, and uhm I think she read a book?” replied Michi cheerfully.

“Kuso! I’m late! She left already!” disappointed Yamapi in his mind. His expression said it all.

“Oh, you know that girl? No worries, I think she will return tomorrow, she has been visiting this place for almost everyday. But yeah, today she left earlier that usual.”

“Ok, thanx!” he forced to smile and Michi stunned again.

He was about to leave when Michi shrieked, “Ohhh, she left something!” she bent down and picked a shiny thing from the floor. Yamapi turned back and saw Akane’s necklace in Michi’s hand.

“That’s her necklace!” surprised him.

“Yes, she left this place in hurry, I think she didn’t realize that the necklace was dropped. Here you can return it yourself.” said Michi and handed the necklace to Yamapi.

“Thanx again Michi!” this time his smile was sincere from the heart. And Michi was about to faint at his adorable smile. He waved to Michi and left the place.

“Aww, such a humble idol!” sighed Michi. “Ahh damn! I forget to ask his autograph!” regretted her and got a glare from her boss.

Outside the door, Yamapi looked at her necklace in his hand, it’s a silver necklace with a small diamond pendant that he gave her as Christmas present. He still remembered her expression when he passed the jewelry box to her. She loved it. And he was really happy that after everything she still kept the necklace with her.

Just when he lifted his head, he saw a familiar figure was walking to his direction. “It’s her!” screamed out his heart. But she didn’t see him, her head faced down to the street. She finally realized that she lost her necklace, and after searched her bag and clothes, she was sure that she must be dropped it near the coffee shop, so she traced down the street looked out for it.

Yamapi walked to her and called out her name softly, “Akane …”

“Yamapi?” surprised her. She wasn’t expected to see him at all.

“Thanx God, you are all right!” he approached her.

“No, don’t ever try to get near me, you said we are over!” she walked back off.

“Akane please! I already realized my mistake! Sorry for being selfish, I can’t live without you! Can you please forgive me?” pleaded Yamapi as he looked deeply into her eyes.

Akane stunned, she wasn’t sure what to do, she didn’t dare looking at his eyes.

“Akane please forgive me!” he repeated and now holding both of her hands.

She finally looked at him back, she saw the sincerity in his eyes.

“I … I … already forgive you, Pi! But …”

“I promise you I will trust you fully! And I will never ever hurt you again! I love you so much!” he started to hug her.

“I love you too!” Akane cried silently and replied his hug.

“Hey hey, don’t cry! You will look ugly with red eyes and running nose!” joked Yamapi.

She smiled and wiped her tears, tears of happiness.

“Ah yes, look what I found, your necklace!” he took out the necklace from his pocket and tried to put it on, she hold back her hair so he could tied it easily.

“Yokatta! I was really worried when I realized that I lost it!”

“I’m so happy that you still want to wear it after what I have done to you.”

“Too much sweet memories to forget.” she blushed.

“Akane, arigatou!” he smiled and gave her a soft kiss in her forehead.

A sound of clapping hands was heard, and they both turned their heads, and dead shocked to see Michi and the owner were outside the coffee shop and witnessed everything.

“So touching!” sobbed Michi while still clapping her hands.

“Ehhh???”

“I’m happy that you two are back together. C’mon, let’s celebrate it inside, my treat!” smiled the owner.

Akane and Yamapi exchanged looks and were worried that their relationship could be exposed.

“Don’t worry, we won’t tell anyone, it’s our little secret!” winked Michi as if she could read their minds.

They exchanged looks again, and this time both of them nodded happily.

So four of them went inside, the other costumers were already left. The owner put on “close” sign at the door and smiled to them. They bowed to show their appreciation. Michi lead them to the table where Akane always sat at, and cheerfully asked what they wanted to order. “ … with manager-san treat of course!” she winked again. They ordered their favorite drinks, iced cappuccino for Akane and espresso for Yamapi. After delivered their orders, Michi excused herself and let them in peace.

“This is too perfect! We have our date at the first place where we met each other!” excited Yamapi.

“Correction, it was you who starred at me, I didn’t notice your existence!” teased Akane.

“Yeah right, you and your books! How come you ignored me like that?” pouted Yamapi.

“Because they are more interesting than you!”

“Akane!”

“Haha sorry, I was blind, ok?”

“That’s more reasonable!” grinned Yamapi in victory.

They spent the next hours chatting away and catch up with everything. They realized that they will never forget this coffee shop. After two hours of enjoyable time, they excused themselves to the owner and Michi.

They walked out the door hand in hand, and when they waited for the taxi, Yamapi insisted to take her home first, beside he wanted to know about her new flat. He stopped a taxi and both of them sat in the back seat.

“Akane …” started Yamapi.

“Yes?”

“Jitsu wa, I wrote a song about us.”

“Ehh really? What song?” excited Akane.

“I already wrote the first verse and chorus two years ago, and performed it twice in Shounen Club, but guess you never watched that show.”

“Ahh gomen, two years ago I was still with Takashi.” regretted Akane.

“It’s ok, I have finished the song, and hopefully it will be included in NEWS first album.”

“Wow, sugoi! I can’t hardly wait to hear it!”

“Actually, if you want you can hear it now.” he took out his MD player and played the song for her.

She listened with much concentration. 5 minutes later …

“Pi-chan, this is such a beautiful song! I love it, the melody and lyrics really touch my heart, what the title of it?”

“It’s called Love Song, I dedicated it just for you.” smiled Yamapi. Akane couldn’t hold her tears anymore. Another tears of eternal happiness.

“Sshhhh, nakaide! You are the best thing in my life, every single words from that song are my honest feeling for you, so please always stay by my side, I promise to love you forever.” he wiped her tears with his hand.

“Atashi mo, yakusoku! Zutto zutto aishiteru!” smiled Akane and looked into his eyes deeply. She rested her head in his shoulder and played Love Song again. Yamapi brushed her hair with much affection, and looked outside the window, the stars and moon were smiling for them.

Pretty Diary 4

2006-05-03T21:21:00.000+08:00

This story again about Yamashita Tomohisa. Taken from YUBIWA.
Do you know why I keep posting YamaPi's fake story?

Chapter 1

Yamashita Tomohisa parked his car in front of his house, he just came back from work, it was another rehearsal for SUMMARY Johnny’s Theatre 2004, and he was really tired, couldn’t wait to rest in his room. He entered the door, and he stopped as he saw a pair of woman’s shoes in the floor, his mind was like, “A guest? At this hour?” as he glimpsed at his watch and it was already 10 pm! He was too tired on guessing who the guest might be, he just walked in and shouted, “Tadaimaa!”

“Okaerinasai, onii-chan!” as he heard his mother replied him back. He saw her sitting and facing the mysterious guest, he couldn’t see the face, but she has middle length black wavy hair. By his surprise, the guest turned her face to him, and said, “Yo Pi-chan, okaeri!” with a big smile! He knew her! “Her big dark brown eyes and sweet smile are still the same!” he spoke to himself. He still stunned and stood there silently, couldn’t say any words as he was dead surprised to see her again!

“Haha, surprise to see me?” said the guest and stood up, she was facing him now.

“Wow, you are growing so tall! Ka-chan, what kind of foods did u feed him?” asked her to his mother.

“Well, not bamboo stick for sure.” joked his mother back.

He smiled, and thought that nothing has changed in her, she still the same cheerful girl that he used to know, and she still get along very well with his mother, even also call her “ka-chan” just like him and his sister.

“Konbanwa, Hana-san!” he finally could say something.

“Hey, don’t be so polite to me, call me Hana please! Now, let me hug you, I miss you all so much!” as she hugged him tightly and made him blushed. He could smell the scent of his hair, and it was also still the same scent as before!

“Oh gawd, it’s been like, how long? 6 years? And you have changed so much, you are really handsome now, yappari, an idol!” she stepped back and observed him.

“Hana-neechan, stop that! You embarrassed me!” blushed Yamapi. And they all laughed together.

“Hana-chan is back from Australia, she will stay with us for a while as her parents are still there.” explained his mother.

“Well actually, I have a plan to rent a flat on my own, but ka-chan resisted that I must stay with you guys.” said Hana.

“No no no, you have to stay with us! I will be very worried if you are staying alone in a flat! Beside you are like my own daughter, no need to be so polite!”

“Hai hai, wakarimashita, kore kara yoroshiku onegaishimasu!” she bowed to them.

“Kochira koso!” replied Yamapi and his mother.

His mother arranged that Hana would sleep at his sister’s room that night, they could only clean up the guest room tomorrow, as it’s already late. Yamapi excused himself and went to his room, his heart was still beating so fast! He couldn’t believe that he met her again! And the fact that she’s staying at his house made him doki-doki even more!

Aizawa Hana is his childhood friend, she is 4 years older than him. But they got along very well. Her family lived next to his house. She encouraged him to join Johnny Jimusho, she even companied him during the audition. She used to call him ‘Tomo-chan’ but ever since Takizawa Hideaki nicknamed him Yamapi, she started to call him ‘Pi-chan’ also, she thought it’s cuter. He always had a crush on her, but never had the courage to express his feeling to her as he knew that she only treated him like a little brother. But 6 years ago, her parents moved to Australia, and she had to follow them, the day when she left was the most unforgettable day in his life. He run away from home, and hid himself in the park, everyone searched out for him, and only Hana who found him. He knew that he was really childish back then, considered that he was already 13 years old, but he couldn’t help it, he treasured her so much, and the thought of her leaving him was hard.

“Pi-chan? I know you are hiding there! Please come out! Everyone is worried about you!” called out Hana. No replied from him.

“Come on, Pi-chan! Don’t make it even harder for both of us!”

“I don’t want you to leave!” finally a reply.

“Neither do I! But I have no other choice! My parents need me there! Please come out so we can talk!”

He crawled out from the cubicle, and surprised to see Hana’s eyes! It was red, as if she had been crying for hours. She pulled his hand, and they sat in the swing chairs. There’s no one beside them in the park, it was a silent moment, before she finally opened her mouth.

“Gomen ne, Pi-chan, I can’t convince my parents for not moving to Australia, otousan got a great job-offer there. And we all have to follow him, I even have to quit high school and continue study in there. Can you imagine? I will live in a country where everyone speaking English!” sighed Hana.

“Hana-neechan is smart, I’m sure you won’t face much trouble.” cheered up young Yamapi.

“Thanx! But it’s hard for me to leave you, I have no siblings, therefore you are like my own brother!”

Yamapi realized being childish wasn’t helping, it would only made her more sad and worried. He decided to be strong and optimist.

“Hana-neechan, don’t worry about me! I will be just fine! We will see each other someday ne?”

“Yes of course! It’s not like I will stay there forever.” smiled Hana.

“Uhm, let’s make something to memorize today. Oh, time-capsule! We will write our wishes, bury along with some stuff and when you are back, we will open it!” suggested young Yamapi.

“Great idea! Let’s do it!” excited Hana.

Then they started to write their wishes in papers. Yamapi found a little box near the trash can, they put the papers in a plastic, also added their personal stuff that they had that time. Hana put down her handkerchief and young Yamapi took out a button of his school uniform from his pocket. He always wanted to ask Hana to sew it back for him, but he hadn’t got the chance. They closed the box, buried it near the swing chairs. After that, both of them stood up, smiled, and crossed their pinky fingers to each other.

“Yakusoku dayo! I will never forget Pi-chan!” said Hana.

“Hai, ore mo, yakusoku! Hana-neechan wasurenai yo, zutto!” promised Yamapi.

Chapter 2

The next morning, Yamapi was about to wake up, but he gasped as soon as he opened his eyes, there was Hana, sitting in the floor next to his bed with both of her hands on her chin looking at him!

“Ohayou, Pi-chan!” said Hana with a big grin.

“Ehh, oh, ore … ohayou!” replied him nervously. Then he realized that he didn’t wear any shirt on! It was summer, he couldn’t stand the heat and opened his shirt last night. He didn’t expect anyone would come inside his room. He suddenly grabbed his shirt and put in on.

“Mou, why you wear the shirt?” pouted Hana.

“Hazukashii na!” blushed Yamapi.

“Nothing to shame of, you have a nice body! Yappari, you have grown a lot!” smirked Hana cheekily.

“Hana-neechan hentai!” laughed Yamapi.

“I’m not pervert! Ka-chan asked me to wake you up, as you have to help us clean up the guest room for me.”

“Yeah right, but you were busy starring me naked!” joked Yamapi.

“I have seen more that, remember?” winked Hana. Suddenly Yamapi thought of their childhood days, when Hana often helped him to bath. His face got even redder.

“But it was then, this is now, I’m not the same anymore!” protested Yamapi.

“What’s the different? I bet you didn’t wear any shirt in the beach!”

“That’s on the beach, it’s normal, Hana-neechan!”

“Okay, what about in the magazines and concerts? Your fans starred at your naked body, and you didn’t mind about that!”

“But … but …” he got speechless.

“Come on, you know that you never win when arguing with me, now don’t be lazy and help us!” ended Hana and pushed him out from the bed.

It was the last day of SUMMARY, Yamapi was relieved that it’s finally over, but also sad at the same time. He would miss the whole atmosphere, the audiences, the 360 degrees stage, the performances, everything! But he was happy that finally he could rest a bit. He finished changing costumes with his own clothes, and when he was about to go out from NEWS dressing room, he saw Jin and Maru were teasing Tegoshi again, he smiled to see their antics. Usually he would join them and play together, but today he had a plan to meet Hana for dinner. So he couldn’t wait to meet her, it was a bit weird to have her living in the same house with him, but he was busy with SUMMARY, therefore he couldn’t spend much time with her. But after today is different, smiled Yamapi on his thoughts.

“Oiii Pi, help us! This brat needs more tickles!” invited Jin as he pointed to Tegoshi who was laughing but yet still struggling from Maru’s tickles.

“I’d love to, but I have an appointment already! Gomen ne!” excused Yamapi.

“Ehhh, you are cheating on me? How sad!” joked Jin.

“Bakanishi, you know you are the only one for me![“ teased Yamapi back.

“But you are seeing someone else, I can’t accept that!” now Jin crossed his hands on the chest as if they were really in a lover’s fight.

“Ok Ok, stop it! Kimochi warui yo! You are insane!” laughed Yamapi.

“Eh Pi-chan, are you sure you don’t want to join the after show party? Even Uchi and Ryo are coming!” asked Maru who was tired chasing Tegoshi and decided to join the conversation.

“Ah, really sorry! I have to pass this time! Bye Bakanishi, bye Maru!” as he excused himself and waved to them. He mumbled “Otsukaresamadeshita!” to everyone he met before he finally reached the main door.

He felt a bit guilty for not coming to the party, he knew it would be a great celebration. Their managers already booked a club for all of them that night, of course the young ones like Ya-Ya-Yah, J.J. Express and other chibi juniors couldn’t join the celebration, but the rest of NEWS, KAT-TUN, ABC, some senpai and even Ryo and Uchi would be there. He wondered if he made a mistake on skipping the party, but then he realized that Hana was more important. He walked with much joy and didn’t think much about feeling guilty anymore.

He took a turn left to the flower shop where he supposed to meet Hana, and was drop dead shocked to see that she wasn’t alone! She was chatting animatedly with two guys but he couldn’t see their faces, but their figures were kind of familiar to him. He raised his eyebrows, and wondered about those guys. But he kept on walking to them, and waved when he saw Hana was looking at him.

“Oh hi Pi-chan! Osoi yo! Good thing these two gentlemen from Osaka are here to company me!” as she waved back to him. And then, those two guys turned their heads to him spontaneously. And he even got more shock when he saw their faces!

“Ehhh?? Ryo-chan? Uchi?? What are you two doing here?” surprised Yamapi.

“Hi Pi, we are about going to SUMMARY after show party! And you know this lady?” said Uchi also surprised to see him.

“Yes, I was about to pick Hana-nee…” as he stopped and screamed, “ITTAAIII!”

Apparently Hana just stepped her right boot to his left shoes to make him shut up. He was still nursing the pain and jumped here and there with one foot when Hana smiled to the Kansai duo and said, “Chotto matte kudasai ne!” She dragged Yamapi with her on the corner and made sure the Kansai duo wouldn’t hear them.

“Hana-neechan, why you stepped on my foot? It’s hurt yo!” complained him.

“Ssssttt, don’t be noisy! You can’t call me neechan in front of them! Infact, from now on stop calling me neechan, it makes me feel old!” hushed Hana.

“Ehhh? Why all the sudden?” puzzled Yamapi.

“I just don’t want them to know that I’m older than them! Well, I don’t look older right?”

Yamapi was still confused but then he realized that Hana actually didn’t look 4 years older than him, with her petite figure and cute face, Hana even looked younger than him! Especially when she wore casual clothes, no make-up and pony-tailed her wavy black hair like today.

“I met them in the train, my purse fell down, and they helped me to pick the coins one by one on the floor! Isn’t that kawaii?” as her eyes glowing at Uchi and Ryo who were 2 meters away from them.

“I always thought Kansai-ers are rude and never care with people around them, but these two boys are such gentlemen!” continued Hana.

Yamapi didn’t know whether to be happy or sad, he was happy that she asked him to stop calling her neechan, he always has deep feeling for her, and it’s not like brother-sister love! But sad because the reason for that wasn’t for him but the sake of other people!

“So from now on, I can call you Hana only?” asked Yamapi.

“Yes! Don’t worry about ka-chan, I will explain to her! Uhm, how do you know those two boys? I kinda like the tall one!”

“Ehhh Uchi? But he’s only 17!” surprised Yamapi.

“Uso! It can’t be true! He doesn’t look like 17 at all!” disappointed Hana with a pout.

“Well, he will be 18 very soon, but you haven’t met Shige yet!” laughed Yamapi.

“Shige who? Oh well, never mind, love has no age limit!” smiled Hana evilly.

“You are really weird today!” that’s all he could say.

“Oh, they are coming!” as she saw them walking to their direction.

“Anoo, sorry to interrupt, but Ryo and me were wondering if you want to join the party or not? Yamapi is going also ne?” asked Uchi politely.

“Eh no, me and Hana-nee… eh Hana already have another plan.” refused Yamapi.

“Come on, Pi-chan, don’t be stupid, of course we would love to come!” smiled Hana and then glared at Yamapi!

“Oh great then! By the way, we haven’t really introduced each other formally, I’m Uchi Hiroki and this is Nishikido Ryo, we are Yamapi’s group mates in NEWS.” replied Uchi.

“Really nice to meet both of you, I’m Aizawa Hana, just call me Hana, thanks for helping me out before.”

“Hana is my childhood friend, we just met again after 6 years, she’s staying at my house now.” explained Yamapi and got another glares from Hana.

“Ouw omoshiroi na! We would like to know any secrets of young Yamapi from you!” joked Ryo and made Yamapi protested, “Hey, hey, don’t talk as if I’m not even here!”

“Shall we go now? We don’t want to be late and miss the fun ne?” suggested Uchi.

“Yeah right, Pi-chan stop sulking! Let’s go!” said Hana and linked her arms to both Uchi and Ryo and left Yamapi sulked even more.

Yamapi woke up with a huge pain in his head, as if there’s mountain of stone inside! He still felt disoriented, scratched his hair and looked around, he was already on his room and also had his clothes changed. He couldn’t remember anything about last night, he only remembered that he drank a lot of cocktails. He was pissed to see Hana flirted around with Uchi but couldn’t do anything to stop that. Therefore he tried to distract from his jealously by drinking. He felt his head was dizzy again. “Damn, when this hangover will stop?” complained him.

He went downstairs to the kitchen, washed his face, and opened the fridge and drank half bottle of mineral water. He felt better, then he noticed that no one was home, he realized that ka-chan was working and his sister went to school already. “Where the hell is Hana?” he thought. Soon after, he heard someone banged the front door, it was her.

“Oh hi, sleepy head! Feeling better already?” greeted Hana while put down her groceries on the kitchen table.

“How did we get home?” asked Yamapi directly.

“Well, you certainly didn’t remember anything ne? Next time don’t drink too much! Look how messy you are now!” grumbled Hana ignoring his question.

“I didn’t drink too much!” denied him childishly.

Hana stop sorting out the groceries and sighed, “Yeah right, you drunk so bad until you couldn’t even get us a taxi and changed your own clothes!”

“Ehh, so it was you who changed it?”

“Yes, why? I told you, I have seen more than that!” grinned Hana.

“But … but …” blushed Yamapi.

“Ahh, c’mon, don’t too shy with me, I’m like your older sister ne? Now what do you want for lunch?” asked Hana cheerfully.

“I never remember you can cook.” teased him.

“Hey, I’m 23 years old, I must know how to cook, silly!”

“Alright, I’m ordering Hana-chan’s speciality!”

“Uhm, what about curry rice?”

“That’s my fave!” exclaimed Yamapi happily.

“OK, now let me work in peace!” shushed Hana.

Yamapi didn’t feel any pain in his head again, yappari, seeing Hana’s face was an instant cure for him. He also felt really happy that she’s cooking just for him, tho he knew that Hana never treated him more than a little brother.

Chapter 3

Yamapi just returned from Hawaii. Johnny-san sent NEWS, KAT-TUN and ABC for holidays there. But of course, for Johnny-san, holidays mean working also. They still have tonz of photo shoots for regular Johnny’s Idols Magazines like Duet, Wink Up, Potato, and Myojo. He got a nice tan, and brought home a lot of omiyage for his family and of course Hana.

“Tadaimaaa!” shouted him as he opened the door. No answer. He knew that his mum and sister haven’t returned yet, but at least he expected Hana to answer him. He checked the living room and kitchen, no sign of her. “Maybe she’s at her room.” guessed Yamapi on his head.

He stood in front of her room and knocked the door, “Aloha, Hana-chan! May I come in?”

No Answer.

“Hana-chan?” he knocked the door louder.

Still no answer.

“ARE YOU THERE?” he couldn’t wait any longer and tried open the door, it was locked, and he got even worried, he banged the door with his shoulder for few times and finally it’s opened. He was dead surprised to see her lying in her bed unconsciously with stack of pills on the floor.

“HANA!!!” he screamed and run to her, he poked her cheeks, rocked her shoulder and she was still unconscious, her face and lips were pale. He was afraid that he lost her already. He bent down to the floor and read the small drug bottle near the pills and it was sleeping pills! “Why Hana-chan needed this? She never had trouble with sleep!” asked him in his mind. Then he realized that there’s no time anymore, he must take her to the hospital! He held her body into his arms and carried her to his car and drove to the nearest hospital in high speed.

***

He saved her just in time. If he came home one hour later, then Hana wouldn’t survive. The doctor said that she was overdosed with sleeping pills and said that it was probably her attempt to kill herself. Yamapi heard everything with disbelief, couldn’t understand why Hana would do such thing. She’s always been a cheerful girl that seemed never had any problems in her life. And he was regretted that he wasn’t alert enough to notice if there’s anything wrong with her.

He said thanks to the doctor and entered Hana’s room, she’s sleeping peacefully, he could hear her soft breathing. He sat beside her bed, took her right hand and held it with both of his hands. He cried softly, he was relieved that she’s still alive. “Why, Hana, why?” whispered him.

He looked at her carefully, her face was still a bit pale, but still beautiful at the same time. And he just noticed that she has a ring on her left finger! He never saw her wearing any ring before, and he was sure Hana once told him that she didn’t like wearing jewelries. But why she has a ring now, and it didn’t seem like an ordinary ring, more like engaged or even wedding ring! He couldn’t stop wondering about that.

After 3 days, Hana was health enough to return home. She apologized to him and his family to make them all worried, but still didn’t tell anything about why she tried to kill herself. And they didn’t push her for that, they understood that she needed more time. His mom and sister spoiled her by not letting her doing any housework. She spent more time in her room with his mom supervised of course. They didn’t want her to do anything stupid anymore.

Yamapi got an overseas work to Spain for 2 weeks, he must film a CM with famous British couple David and Victoria Beckham. He got selected to be the brand new character of the CM. He didn’t want to leave her, but he had no choice as he already signed the contract before he went to Hawaii. He made sure that his mom would take good care of her and watch her closely. One other thing bothered him, he didn’t see the ring on her slender finger anymore. His head was full with questions, what is the meaning of the ring? Who gave her that ring? And why she didn’t wear it again? All the questions that he wanted to ask her directly but he knew that it wasn’t the right time for that. He left to Spain with half-willingly heart and lots of worries.

Chapter 4

“Moshi-moshi, Hana-chan? Ore!” greeted Yamapi on the phone.

“Pi-chan! You have to stop calling me everyday, it’s not cheap yo!” replied Hana.

“It’s ok, don’t worry about that! How are you today?”

“I’m fine, ka-chan and your sister treat me like a princess and watch me 24/7!”

“Haha, good then! I met the couple today!”

“Oh, David and Victoria Beckham? How are they?”

“They are nice and friendly, David-san especially! But Victoria-san invited me to visit their house sometimes.”

“Coolies, so you talked much with them?” excited Hana.

“Not really, we have interpreter to translate everything! You know that my English isn’t good!”

“Ahhh if only you could bring me along!”

“Hana-chan, be honest with me, are you OK? I’m still concerned about that day, would you like to talk with me about that?” asked Yamapi all the sudden, he couldn’t hold it any longer, he wanted to know what’s going on with her.

It was a silent moment for few seconds…

“Hana-chan? Are you there?”

“Oh right, yes, I’m here, but sorry Pi, I have to go now, do you want to talk with ka-chan?” replied Hana hurriedly.

“Uhm no, I talked to her already this morning. Are you sure you are OK?” worried Yamapi again.

“Yes, I’m OK! Don’t worry about me! Take care ne? Jya ne!” ended Hana.

“Jya!” as he heard the sound of her putting down the phone.

He sighed, he still worried about her, and was wondering why she wasn’t trust him enough. He would do anything for her, if she asked him to fly back to Japan now, he would do it! He felt that he must talk about this with someone, he opened his keitai again, searched the address book. HaseJun? Nope, he’s not serious person, maybe he would laugh at me instead. Jin? Uhm, he’s caring, but a bit too baka for this case, I probably will spend hours on explaining the situation first. Kazapon? He’s wise, but lately we didn’t talk much. Oh Toma! Yes, he’s the right person! He dialed his number on his hotel room’s phone and waited for him to answer.

“Moshi-moshi?” answered Toma after few connecting tone.

“Hi Toma! It’s me Yamapi!”

“Oh hi Pi, I didn’t recognize you, it’s overseas call!”

“Yes, I’m in Spain now, filming a CM! How are you? Long time not see ne?”

“I’m good, busy rehearsal for West Side Story with Kazapon, Sho, Ohno and MatsuJun!” replied Toma cheerfully.

“Oh, are you busy now? Sorry for bothering you! I will call you again next time!”

“Ehhh no, I’m not busy, I’m glad you are calling! What’s up?”

“Err, I don’t know how to start, it’s kinda complicated.”

“Is it related with a girl?” guessed Toma.

“Ehhh, you know? How come?” surprised Yamapi.

“Well Pi, how long do I know you? Just shoot, I’m all ears! But prepare for the shocking phone bill later!” joked Toma.

“I don’t care with phone bill! Do you remember Aizawa Hana? She’s my childhood friend, she often companied me to Johnny’s building when we were young.”

“Ohh yes, I do remember her, cute oneechan! She moved to Australia right? What happened with her?”

“She returned to Japan last month and staying with my family. She seemed like the same cheerful girl that we used to know, but last week when I returned from Hawaii, I found her committed suicide with sleeping pills! Good thing, I saved her right in time, or else, she would die!”

“Oh sorry to hear that! Is she alright now?” concerned Toma.

“Yes she is alright, but she still doesn’t want to talk about it! I’m worried!”

“Nee Pi, calm down, I know it’s hard for you, but please give her more time, I think when the time is right, she will tell you everything.”

“I know, but I can’t help it!” Yamapi’s voice sounded more depressed.

“Pi, you love her, don’t you?” asked Toma suddenly.

“Ehhh? Uhm no, yes, no … argh, I don’t know!” denied Yamapi.

“C’mon Pi, I know you too well, I can sense that you even have loved her since those childhood days!”

“Yeah, I think so! I care for her too much, and it’s hurt me to see her like that! Toma, what should I do?” begged Yamapi in frustration.

“Like I said, give her more time, if you started pushing her, she wouldn’t tell you anything! And Pi … “

“Yes?”

“Confess your love to her or something! It’s not good to keep your feeling alone like this! Maybe you both will find more happiness together.” suggested Toma wisely.

“Uhm, I don’t know, what if she rejected me? I think she only treats me like her little brother.” replied him in pessimistic way.

“It’s not like you, be more positive! Even if she rejected you, it’s not the end of the world. At least you have let out your feeling, and believe me, you will feel much better after that!”

“Thanks Toma! Talking to you is the right thing! Thanks again for the advices!”

“Sure thing dude! That’s what friends are for!” smiled Toma.

“I have to go now, send my regards to everyone in there!”

“I will, you take care ok? Jya ne!”

“Jya ne!” as he ended the conversation.

Yamapi was tired from the long hours at the plane from Madrid to Tokyo, but he couldn’t wait to see Hana, he was still worried about her, and he asked the taxi driver to drive faster. He arrived home and once he entered the the front door, he saw few luggage were there, he recognize the blue ribbons, he gave it to Hana during the old school-days each time he won something on the school sport day. He smiled and felt really happy that she still kept them. But then he was confused, why those luggage were ready in the front door?

He was still wondering when his mum went outside and greeted him, “Okaerinasai, onii-chan!” but her face was gloomy, and he could sense that something was wrong.

“Ka-chan, tadaima! Where’s Hana? Why her luggage are here?”

“She said that she wanted to go back to her parents in Australia, it was a sudden plan! I couldn’t do anything to stop her!”

“Eeeehhh??”

“She didn’t know that you are coming home one day earlier, she thought that you would only go back tomorrow, she said it’s better if you didn’t know about her plan.”

“How come you didn’t tell me on the phone this morning?”

“It’s because she only told me about her plan 2 hours ago! And you were still on the plane, how am I supposed to tell you?”

“Arghhh, where is she now?” asked Yamapi in frustration tone.

“I have no idea, she said she went out for a while before going to the airport.”

“Damn, I go out to find her!” he put down all his belongings and rushed run out the door before his mum could say anything.

“Hana, why you are doing this?” asked Yamapi in his thoughts on and on again. He wondered where she could be at this moment, but then he realized there was only one possible place to find her. The park! He run as fast as he could. And as he reached the corner, he saw the petite figure in the swing chair. He sighed in relieved, “Yokatta, she’s alright!” as he spoke to himself.

He walked slowly to her, tried to approach her without any sound, her head was facing the ground therefore she didn’t realize about his presence, she was sitting in the swing chair with trace of tears in her rosy cheeks. Yamapi took a seat in the swing chair next to her and only that moment, she gasped and looked at him.

“Pi-chan! You are back!” surprised her as if she had just seen a ghost.

“Tadaima, Hana-chan! Nice surprise isn’t it?”

“Yeah right! I’m very surprise to see your hair!”

“What? You only realized that I have permed my hair now?” pouted Yamapi.

“Hontou ni, I didn’t realized it! OMG, what happened to your hair?” asked Hana in concerned way, she certainly enjoyed each of the teasing moments. Yamapi smiled, he was relieved that Hana has turned back normal again. He missed her cheerfulness so badly.

“My hairdresser said I should try a curly style and I said whatever, is it that bad?” now he was worried that she wouldn’t like it.

“Well, my poor eyes need a little adjustment for your new hair! But I like it, very stylish, suit with you!”

“Really? I wasn’t really into this style before, but I start to like it.” shrugged Yamapi.

“It looks cute on you, infact it makes you look like a puppy, the poodle one!” laughed Hana and patted his hair.

“Hana-chan, stop it!” sulked Yamapi while trying to keep her hand from his hair. He glimpsed her left hand, still no ring on her finger.

“Ahyes, I have something for you from Madrid. Here is omiyage!” he took out a black jewelry box from his pocket. Hana received it confused look, and she went silent when she opened the small box, it’s a ring! Yamapi decided to buy her a silver ring, hopefully he would have some of his questions answered.

“Ehh, no meaning of the ring, I just thought it would look good on you!” said him quickly.

“Pi-chan …” said Hana all the sudden, her voice changed into serious tone.

“Yes?” replied him.

She took a deep breath and sighed, “ Guess it’s time for me to explain everything to you. I came back to Japan to run away from my problem. You see, I had a fiancée in Australia.” Yamapi already expected this fact, especially after he saw the ring that day.

“Go on.” he said softly.

“He’s a Korean, really sweet guy, and we loved each other deeply. But his parents disagreed with our relationship, you know because of the bad past history between our countries.”

“Yes, and?”

“At first we didn’t really care with their approval, we got engaged secretly, but his parents found out, they actually already got a Korean girl of their choice for him, and asked him to break our engagement.” her voice started to shake.

“He refused, but then his mum fell sick and he felt guilty about it, we got arguments, and at the end he chose his parents over me.” cried Hana softly.

Hana tried her best to stop the sobbing and continue her story.

“I couldn’t stand of losing him, so I tried to forget him by returning back to Japan. But I still hurt inside, I tried to hide everything with my fake cheerfulness so you guys wouldn’t know. But the more I hide it the more I lost myself …”

“Hana-chan, you shouldn’t hide anything from us, we would help!” interrupted Yamapi.

“I know, you guys are like my own family, but I don’t want to make all of you worried about me. I tried to be strong and face everything by myself, but that day, was the day when we supposed to get married! I couldn’t stand the fact that he’s marrying another girl in our wedding day! I felt like my life was empty and there was no point of me to live anymore, that’s why I made the most stupid thing in my life! I’m sorry! I’m really sorry!” sobbed Hana.

Now Yamapi understood everything, about the ring, about her problem. He tried to calm her down, he put his arm to her shoulder and whispered, “SShhhh, it’s alright, Hana-chan!” She let out crying into his shoulder and after a while, she calmed herself and said, “Whoah, I feel so much better now! Thanx Pi for listening my story! I’m ready to go now, it’s time for me to move on with my life and return to Australia. My parents must be really worried.”

“Oh, but will you come back here?” Yamapi hated the fact that she’s about to leave him again.

“I’m not sure Pi, I have lots of things to do there.”

He nodded, he didn’t want her to leave, but he couldn’t be that selfish.

“Before you go, I also have something to tell you.”

“What? Make it quick! I have a plane to catch!”

“Ore wa, ore wa … Hana-chan ga daisuki desu!” he finally let out his feeling to her. Hana was surprised but then she smiled, “Baka, I know that you like me since long time ago! Why you only confessed now?”

“I’m not sure about your feeling to me, I always thought that you only treated me as your little brother.” blushed Yamapi.

“Well, you certainly not little anymore, look how tall you are now! You make me look like a dwarf!” sniffed Hana.

“See? This is why I never confessed to you coz I know you will make such comment! You are like the female version of Ryo-chan!” grumbled Yamapi.

“Ahhh why Ryo? I like Uchi more!” teased Hana and made Yamapi pouted, and before he could open his mouth and replied back, she said, ”Pi-chan, seriously I’m happy for your feeling, arigatou ne! I care about you too, but can you give me more time to answer this? I’m still not sure if I’m able to start any new relationship after everything.”

Yamapi nodded, he understood that he couldn’t ask for more. He already confessed his love to her, and he never felt anything better than this. He knew that it’s not easy for her and he didn’t want to push her. He was happy enough to see her smile again.

“I will wait for you, Hana-chan! Forever!”

“Thanx, you are really sweet! Now I have to go! Oh wait, did we bury a time-capsule here before? Why don’t we open it now?”

“Oh right, how come I forget about it! Uhm, I think that’s the spot!” pointed Yamapi to the ground near the swing chair. Both of them reached the spot and dig out like little kids, satisfaction was drawing into their faces when they finally found their time-capsule box! Yamapi let Hana opened the box, she took out the handkerchief and his uniform’s button out from the plastic.

“Oh gawd, it’s my favorite handkerchief! I missed it! Still looking good, here, it’s for you! I will take the button!” as she threw the handkerchief to him. He wasn’t prepared but caught it right before it fell on the ground.

“Hana-chan!” glared Yamapi.

“What?” as she acted innocently. “Oh wow, I totally forgot about the wishes!” screamed Hana as she saw two small papers inside the plastic. She took it out, read them quickly and smiled. Yamapi couldn’t remember what he had written, it was almost 7 years ago. He was curious to read those wishes too, but Hana kept the papers by herself mischievously.

“No no no, you can’t see the papers yet, it’s your fault that you didn’t remember it!” she just loved to tease him like that. Yamapi pouted and Hana said, “Ok, ok, here you can read mine.” and passed one paper to him.

He started to read Hana’s neat handwriting, it’s written, “I’m gonna miss Pi-chan so much, so please please, I want to come back to Japan and meet him again!”

“Your wish came true at last!” smiled Yamapi.

“Yes! Isn’t it wonderful? And no, I won’t let you read your wish!” teased her again.

“Hana! Stop teasing me, and gimme the paper now!”

“No way! You will see it when the time is right! Oh gosh, I will be late! Hayaku, take me to the airport now!”

Chapter 5

6 months later …

That day was his 20^th birthday, he hasn’t heard anything from Hana ever since he drove her to the airport 6 months ago. Hana said she would call him, but she never did. He felt lonely but then he knew that she probably busy moving on her life in there. “But at least she could send me a birthday card!” grumbled Yamapi in his heart.

He didn’t have any special plan that day, no Harucon schedule either. He received a lot of birthday wishes from his mates, but actually he only had one wish that day, that Hana would call him. He sighed, so typical Hana. 7 years ago, she also promised to keep in touch by snail mail, but after a month or so, the letters never came again.

Jin asked him to celebrate his birthday on karaoke with the rest of KAT-TUN, but he refused and said that he didn’t want to get too tired, as he would have a concert with NEWS the next day. He decided to go and see his mates Toma and HaseJun’s stage play AZUMI, he already promised that he would go and see their performance, but never had a perfect time to do that.

He went to the backstage after the play, he wanted to congratulate them in person.

“Yo Toma, HaseJun! Congratulation on your play! You guys are great!”

“Hi Pi, thanx for coming, and happy birthday!” welcomed Toma.

“Yes Pi, otanjoubi omedetou!” added HaseJun.

“Here, let me introduce you to Meisa!” as Toma dragged him to meet his beautiful co-actress.

“Meisa, this is Yamashita Tomohisa! Yamapi, Meisa!” introduced Toma.

“Hello! Nice to meet you!” greeted Yamapi and bowed politely.

“Hi Yamapi! Nice to meet you too! Toma often talk about you!” replied Meisa with big smile.

“Oh, good stuff I hope!” winked Yamapi.

“Hey hey, no flirting here!” joked Toma.

“Oiii Meisa, the director needs you!” called out HaseJun. Meisa excused herself and Yamapi nodded. Later he smirked to Toma and said, “Yo dude, nice catch! Heard that you and her practically kiss everyday!”

“Haha, that’s only for the play, you are not jealous, aren’t you?” teased Toma back.

“Hmmph, as if there’s no other girls left in this world that I must jealous with her!” fumed Yamapi.

“Speaking of girl, I’d like you to meet someone!”

“Again? I don’t need that! I just want to go home after this!”

“NO BUT! Follow me!” forced Toma and practically dragged him along to the theatre which was already empty.

“Wait here!” instructed Toma and made him sat in the front-center-seat. The stage was dark and the light at the theatre was dim, so he hardly saw anything. Toma left him alone and he started to get bored after a while.

“Yeah right, waiting in empty theatre on my hatachi birthday!” he grumbled to himself and crossed his hands on the chest. He sulked like 5 years old boy.

Later, he heard a piano with soft tune of happy birthday song was being played. And a sound of sweet voice singing happy birthday to him.

“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Pi-chan, happy birthday to you!”

He gasped from his chair and looked around for the source of that voice! “It can’t be! Is she here?” he thought.

And there she was, walking toward him from the left door with a small birthday cake and a light candle, smiling to him! She looked amazingly beautiful with the baby pink cocktail dress and soft make-up.

“Otanjoubi omedetou, Pi-chan! Now make a wish!” she raised the cake a bit and he blew out the candle.

“Yay! Good boy!”

“Hana-chan! Why you didn’t tell me that you are coming?”

“Baka! Never heard a word of SURPRISE?”

“Of course, but why you never called me?”

“You know girl shouldn’t make the first move!”

“But how am I supposed to call you if you didn’t give me any of your frigging numbers?”

“Eh? Why you didn’t ask ka-chan? She knows!” winked Hana.

“HANA!” glared Yamapi.

“Hai hai, it was my fault okay? Now I’m here! And this is my answer for you!” she handed one paper to him, it was the old paper wish that he wrote 7 years ago! She finally let him read it!

“Etooo, how am I supposed to read this? It’s dark in here!”

“Argh Pi, you ruin the moment you know, here use this!” she let out her mobile and opened it so the light could help him read the paper.

He was still struggling to read his own messy handwriting 7 years ago, and finally could see the words on it. It’s written, “I want Aizawa Hana to be my future bride!” he chuckled, “I really wrote this?”

“Damn you Pi, you are really not romantic at all, read my handwriting underneath!”

“Oh Okay!” he continued reading in the dim light. Her handwriting was short and simple, “Yes, I DO!”

“OMG, is this for real?” he couldn’t believe it and pinched himself, “Ouch!”

“Yes! Everything is real! I’m here now, and I won’t never ever leave you again! And I’m sure you never noticed this, watch my hand!” she flashed her right hand in front of him. She’s wearing the silver ring that he bought in Madrid on her slender finger! He felt like he wanted to cry, everything was too good to be true, everything was perfect on his birthday, he would never expected this.

“Hana-chan, arigatou!”

“No, that’s my line! I’m the one who supposed to say thank you! I’m sorry I have made you waited for my answer, I never thought how blessed I’m to have you for all this time! You are always here for me, taking care of me, helping me, everything! Thank you from the bottom of my heart! Please continue take good care of me!” she moved forward and hugged him.

The moment was right, he started to kiss her. He locked his lips to hers, and it felt like magic for both of them. It tasted sweet and full of affections. The kiss that they wouldn’t forget for their entire life, the kiss that started their relationship as a couple. She smiled lovingly as he released the kiss.

“Hana-chan, you said that you didn’t like wearing jewelries ne? Is it alright for you to wear my ring?” worried him.

“I only wear the ring from the guy that I love! Baka!” her sentences made him blushed, he couldn’t believe how lucky he was.

“I love you too, Hana!” and now it was her turn to blush. He hugged her again, and enjoyed each passing time, feeling her body in his embrace, and suddenly a soft music was heard.

“Dang, Toma is way too good!” laughed Hana.

“Shall we dance?” Yamapi offered his hand to her.

“Sure!” she welcomed his hand and they started to dance until the music stopped and the light was down and no one beside them in the theatre. It past midnight, his birthday was over but his new days with Hana has just begun.

Pretty Diary 3

2006-05-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

From left: Wan Nor Hafizah a.k.a Ijah, me and 'Izzatul Fatihah a.k.a Izat

Even though we are far apart, Ijah in Sabah, me in Perak and Izat in Kuala Lumpur, we will still be together in one heart!
*He he he, over sentimental!*

Pretty Diary 2

2006-05-01T14:54:00.000+08:00

This is a Yamashita Tomohisa story, taken from TIME and I really like this story...
It's just a fiction not based on a true story...

Chapter 1

It was another hectic day for Yamashita Tomohisa, a young idol who also known as Yamapi, a nickname given by his senpai Takizawa Hideaki. He just finished some rain scenes for his winter drama titled Sore Wa Totzunen Arashi No You Ni. It’s one of the first scenes, and he felt really tired, as he must soak under the water during the cold weather in Tokyo. He was happy though, coz it was his first main role drama ever! And he liked his character as well, quite challenging, as he must fall in love with much older woman who is already married. His opponent cast Esumi Makiko is a professional actress and he also got a chance to work with other good casts.

After he said bye to the drama crew, he went to the nearest coffee shop for relaxing a bit, he didn’t want to go home, as he was sure his mum and sister haven’t returned yet. He would feel really lonely at home, so he decided to kill some time in that coffee shop. He entered the door, the owner who is a middle aged man welcomed him with a soft nod and he told the owner that he wanted an espresso. He had to read the script for tomorrow scenes, therefore he needed a strong drink to keep his eyes open. He looked around the coffee shop, there were only four costumers including him that afternoon. A man and a woman, a couple maybe, he thought, sat near the door. And a girl who sat near the window.

He decided to take a seat near the girl who seemed busy with her book, soon after the waiter came to him with his espresso. He started reading his script as well. Later, a bunch of school girls came in, and they were surprised to see him there!

“Oh gawd, isn’t that Yamapi?” whispered a girl to her friends.

“Yeah, he looks like him! But what is he doing in here?” whispered another girl.

“Maybe this is our lucky day! Let’s go find out!”

Yamapi noticed the whispers and all the sudden he wanted to disappear. He didn’t feel like to be the center of attention at that moment, and was hoping the school girls wouldn’t approach him, but he was wrong! They walked to his table and asked for his autographs! He tried to smile and scratched his signatures on the papers or books that they offered him. He gave the owner of the coffee shop the look for help, he understood and later politely asked the school girls to leave him alone. Yamapi also said that he was really tired after the filming, and would like some space to rest. They understood, and finally left the place with much satisfaction for getting his autographs.

He was relieved, but something wondered him, that girl near the window didn’t seem to be bothered at all with all the noise. While he knew even the couple near the door were looking at him now with interest. The girl was still busy with her book, she even didn’t touch her coffee. At first he thought maybe the girl was deaf, but later he saw her knocking her right hand’s fingers on the table while the other hand holding the book, it means she could hear the sound of the music that played in the coffee shop. He shook his head, why on earth I care for that girl, he thought. He stood up, paid for the espresso, and left the place.

The next day, after the filming, he came back to that coffee shop as he forgot his sunglasses there. The owner smiled when he entered the door, gave him a welcomed nod and later returned his sunglasses. He looked around, and by his surprise, there she was, the same girl, sitting in the same table, reading the same book! And he’s not surprised to see her engrossed with her book again. He wondered why the girl never noticed him at all. And he couldn’t help but starring at her, she supposed to be in early 20’s, maybe 2 or 3 years older than me, he thought. She wore casual clothes, and looked cute with her short fringe and shoulder length black hair framing her face. But there’s something with her face, a sorrow, and he didn’t know why.

Day by day, he always came back to that coffee shop, and he always saw her in the same table. Maybe that table already reserved for her, he thought. He never came to her, as he was afraid the girl would notice that he had been starring at her every single day. Sometimes he watched her stop reading and took a sip of her coffee, put her hands on her chin and wandered outside the window, as if there’s something interesting out there. Little by little, Yamapi knew few of her habits, that she loves reading English books, that she likes cappucino, and that she usually left the place around 8 pm. And yet, she still never noticed my existence, sighed Yamapi.

That day was the last day of the drama filming, he was relieved that it’s over but also sad at the same time, coz it would be the last day for him to see that girl in that coffee shop. The location of the drama is quite far from his home, and he would start his university life soon, so it’s impossible for him to visit that place again. He entered the door, heard the welcome greeting from the waiter, he ordered his favorite drink which is espresso, and of course started to see the girl again, he didn’t know her name yet. She wore black sweater today, and she tied up her hair, which made her even cuter, he thought.

She’s reading different book now, and all the sudden, she closed the book, and started to cry silently. She didn’t make any sound of sobbing but he knew that she’s crying! Tears fell down from her eyes to her cheek, and she turned her head to the window, didn’t want anyone to see her crying. Later she wiped her tears with her hands, packed her belongings, put money on the table and left the place hurriedly. Yamapi was still amazed and wasn’t ready to see her go so soon. He run outside and lost the sight of her already. “Damn, I was going to ask her name today!” he thought.

Chapter 2

3 months later…

Yamapi just turned 19 years old this spring, and he also just started his university life. He made it to enter Meiji University, and he chose Business as his major. He made a lot of friends already, sometimes he wondered about their sincerity, if they wanted to be his friends only because his popularity or not. But he always faced this situation since he entered Johnny’s Jimusho, and he didn’t want to think much about it. He started to enjoy his university life.

It was lunch time. He planned to meet his NEWS group mate Koyama Keiichiro in the library that day. But he hasn’t seen the single eye-lids boy yet. Koyama entered the university one year ahead him, they sometimes spent lunch together, discussed about work and so on. He took a seat and waited for him, and soon after few girls came to him for casual talks or introduced themselves to him. He actually felt uncomfortable to be surrounded by girls like that, but he already got used with the situation.

“Ahem, sorry girls, I have to steal the prince charming from you all right now! We have important thing to talk about!” interrupted Koyama who just came in with his usual cheeky smile.

“Ahhh, Koyama, finally!” welcomed Yamapi with a huge relieved tone.

“Noooo, you come at the wrong time, Koyama-kun! We haven’t finished with dear Yamapi yet!” pouted a girl.

“Yes, don’t take him away from us!” added another girl.

“Gomen, gomen, we really must go now, see you all later ne!” exclaimed Koyama then dragged Yamapi along with him.

After they left the library and made sure the girls didn’t follow them, Yamapi turned his head to Koyama and said, “Phew, thanks dude! You are my saviour! I always wanted to run from those girls!”

“Haha, it was easy to find you, just look for the crowd of girls and there you are!” teased Koyama.

They both laughed then walked to the canteen for lunch then discussed about their new single Kibou~Yell. They would participate again at the volleyball event, but this time not the World Cup but Olympic. They would be very busy on supporting the National Team, both men and women teams all over Japan. They relieved to know that it’s almost their summer break, so they wouldn’t be too occupied with study.

“Alright Pi, I have a class to attend now, I will see you again at 5 pm, ok?” Koyama ended the conversation.

“Hai, wakatta! Jya ne!” said Yamapi. Then they walked in separate ways, Koyama to his classroom and Yamapi to University park. He wanted to check out some schedules in the bulletin board.

He walked to the board and was relieved to see no one was there, so he could take all his time alone in there. He took out his agenda and pen, and wrote necessary info that he needed. His eyes caught a new small notification, it was a congratulation message for English Writing National Competition winner from Meiji University. It’s for a girl named Haneda Akane. He didn’t know the girl but he felt someway proud for her success, not many Japanese are good in English, thought him. And just about when he wanted to turn back and walked off, he bumped to someone.

“Ouch!” a girl voice came out.

“Oh, sorry, I didn’t see you back then!” apologized Yamapi tried to help the girl stand up properly, she almost fell down the grass! And Yamapi was dead shocked when he finally saw the girl, it’s the same girl that he always starred out in the coffee shop 3 months ago! Nothing has changed in her, he thought, only her hair is longer and made her looked more mature. The girl didn’t say anything, she glared at him with annoyed look on her face.

“Daijoubu? Really sorry again!” said Yamapi. Still no words from her, she just tidied her clothes and walked off. Yamapi was confused and disappointed at the same time. He couldn’t understand her rude behavior. Maybe I had a hallucination, I hope it’s not the same girl, thought Yamapi. Then he glimpsed his watch and shrieked, “Yabai! I’m late for my class!” and he run to the class hurriedly.

Yamapi stood near the gate waiting for Koyama. It’s already 5 past 10 already, and he thought how unusual for Koyama to be late from his own appointment. He waited anxiously and killed time by walking around the gate. Soon after he felt a pat on his shoulder and just when he was about to turn back and scold Koyama for being late, “Koyama, why you are…” and he stopped as he got another shock to see the girl who stood beside Koyama, it’s that girl again! And yappari, it’s still the same girl at the coffee shop 3 months ago, frowned his mind. The girl was stunned also, but later she tried to act normal again.

“Gomen Pi, I had something earlier, that’s why I’m late! By the way, this is my friend Haneda Akane from English class! Akane, this is Yamashita Tomohisa aka Yamapi!” excused Koyama and started the introduction. Yamapi offered his hand for the formal handshake, but Akane just nodded and said shortly, “Yes, we have met before.” Yamapi was embarrassed as she didn’t welcome his hand and furiously thought, that’s it, I have had enough of her rudeness!

“Ehhh, really? Where did you two meet?” excited Koyama.

“Before my class at the bulletin board, and she bumped into me!” bursting out Yamapi.

“Excuse me? It’s you who bumped me!” denied Akane.

“Well, at least I helped you stand up, apologized and you walked off without saying anything!” retorted Yamapi.

“Who said I need your help anyway?” barked Akane back.

“Oi guys, chill out! You two just met and act like a married couple already!” Koyama tried to be the peacemaker. Both Yamapi and Akane went silent but still starred at each other angrily. He really didn’t understand this girl, she was very quiet before, and now so urusai like a mad dog, and why she had to yell at me, it’s her who was rude to me first, thought Yamapi.

“Ok, you two, calm already? We better get going, my Miharu already waited for us in the café!” said Koyama again. Miharu is Koyama’s girlfriend, she attended the university a year before him, but she doesn’t look older than them. As Koyama often brought her along to meet his friends, she’s also close with Yamapi.

“Gomen ne, Koyama-kun, I think I better pass, I have to do things at home. Please send my regards to Miharu.” excused Akane. Yamapi took a deep breath, at first he was the one who would excused himself as he thought he wouldn’t stand much longer hanging out with this evil witch!

“Ahh, that’s too bad, Akane! But you will join us tomorrow ne?” disappointed Koyama.

“I can’t promise but I will try! Bye Koyama-kun! Bye pretty boy!” as she run off the gate.

“PRETTY BOY?!? Who the hell she think she is?!?” sulked Yamapi as they walked to the café.

“Come on Pi! Stop sulking! I know Akane has sharp tongue, a bit strange, but she’s actually a sweetie and a genius in English!” calmed Koyama.

“A BIT? She’s an evil witch! Just because she’s great in something, it doesn’t mean she can be rude to people!” grumbled Yamapi.

“I also don’t know why she acted like that today, maybe she was nervous to see a good looking dude like you!” teased Koyama.

“I don’t think so!” said Yamapi as he thought the days at the coffee shop 3 months ago, he was sure that the girl at least already saw him once or twice back then, “She is just weird, end of discussion!” added Yamapi and waved to Miharu as they entered the café.

Chapter 3

“Gomen Akane, I can’t be with you any longer, but I will always love you…” a deep shaking voice came out.

Akane gasped, opened her eyes and sat in the edge of her bed. It was a dream. The same dream again. She started crying, all the dreams really haunted her, she wanted to forget her past, continue her life as a normal 21 years old girl, but she couldn’t! She loved him so much, and always thought they would be together, but now he’s not here with me, sobbed Akane.

Akane used to be a cheerful girl, with a lot of enthusiasm, and laughs. She had a lot of friends and was a dearly student. Her father was an ambassador, ever since young Akane traveled all around the world, and she spent 5 years in America, and only returned to Japan when she was 17 years old, that’s why she has a good English. She never stop studying and learning about it, she won the scholarship in Keio University and entered the English literature.

She won’t forget the first day in her University life, it was the day when she met him. Her beloved boyfriend. They were a perfect couple. But something happened, and made her lost him, and also lost part of her soul. She was in denial for some period of time, lost her confident and made her a complete different person. She’s no longer a happy cheerful girl, but turning into a moody rude girl. She kept distance with people as if she can’t trust them any longer. She resigned from Keio University as she can’t bear people looking at her with pity faces, she transferred to Meiji University. She wanted to start a new life there.

Yamapi sighed for the fifth time and made his best friend Akanishi Jin couldn’t stand it any longer and asked, “Pi, stop it! What’s wrong?” he looked at him worriedly. Yamapi slept over at Jin’s house again.

“Iie, betsuni.” lied him and faced down to the floor.

“Come on, I know you! Tell me what’s on your mind!” forced Jin.

“Really it’s nothing, I just confused, there’s a girl…”

“Yatta! I know it, it’s a love problem!” grinned Jin in victory.

“Bakanishi! I’m not in love!” denied Yamapi. He sighed again and finally decided to open up with Jin, even if he’s a baka, but at least Jin is a good listener, he thought.

“Then what is it? Tell me! I can’t read your mind!” sulked Jin. Yamapi smiled to see his friend childish act and told him the whole story, about how he saw this girl in coffee shop 3 months ago and how she never noticed him, and that he met the girl again in University, and how rude she was.

“… so what I have to do? It’s not like I’m interested with her, in fact I hate her, she’s really evil.”

“Whoah Pi, I can’t believe that girl completely ignored you! But maybe she has issue, and I don’t know why.”

“I will find out. Now please turn out the light, I have morning class tomorrow.” and he walked to Jin’s bed ready to sleep.

“Ehhhh, but that’s my bed!” protested Jin.

“Be nice to your guest, you can sleep in the couch, oyasumi!” laughed Yamapi cheekily and left Jin sulked even more.

Yamapi just finished all his class today, and he had appointment to meet Koyama again at the gate, they would have dinner with the NEWS Kansai duo, Uchi Hiroki and Nishikido Ryo. They would stay in Tokyo for couple of days due to work. He walked to the gate, and saw Koyama was there already with Miharu and Akane! Arrghhh, that girl again, thought him.

“Hi Yamapi! You have met Akane before right?” greeted Miharu.

“Yes.” he answered shortly.

“Uhm, I think he’s not really happy to see me joining you guys, I better go home.” Akane excused herself.

“Eh, don’t go Akane! You didn’t join us yesterday, beside I don’t want to be the only girl today, you have to company me!” said Miharu.

“Yes Akane, please, for the sake of Miharu!” begged Koyama supported his girlfriend.

“I don’t mind you joining us…” Yamapi finally opened his mouth. He decided to be nice today, in the other hand, he wanted to find out what’s behind her rudeness.

“See? Let’s go!” exclaimed Koyama and lead the small group to the restaurant where they supposed to meet Uchi and Ryo.

Chapter 4

They entered the restaurant and sat in the table for 6 people. They waited the Kansai duo to arrive, while waiting they ordered the drinks first. Akane sat in the corner with Miharu beside her, they took the wall side of seats. Koyama was in front of Miharu, and Yamapi took a seat beside him. That made him face to face with Akane, I hope I will find out more about her tonight, said Yamapi in his mind.

10 minutes later …

Uchi and Ryo finally arrived, Koyama waved his hand so they could find their table. Uchi saw it and nodded, then they both walked to table. Akane gasped when she saw them! It’s not because she was excited to see another NEWS members, she doesn’t really care for music world, and never been a fan girl. She was shocked to see … Ryo!

“Gomen, we are late! Blame it on Uchi, he couldn’t decide which shirt to wear!” excused Ryo.

“Hey, I have to dress up properly coz I want to see Koyama!” joked Uchi and winked to Koyama.

“Haha Uchi, stop dreaming, all along you know it’s one side love! I have Miharu already!” laughed Koyama.

“Yeah, back off! He’s mine!” added Miharu.

“Miharu, my love enemy! Nice to see you again, and this is … ?” as Uchi looked to Akane, who was silent ever since they arrived.

“Oh yes, almost forget, this is our friend Haneda Akane” introduced Koyama.

“Hello, nice to meet you, Akane! I’m Uchi Hiroki and this is Nishikido Ryo.” said Uchi cheerfully. “Hi Akane!” added Ryo. Akane didn’t say anything, she just nodded and silent again. Uchi and Ryo looked at each other, they couldn’t help wondering how weird this girl was. Her respond was completely unexpected, usually girls will act excited if they met idols like them. But yappari, she’s different, they thought.

Uchi took a seat beside Miharu and Ryo sat in last empty seat beside Koyama. The dinner was nice, they spent the lovely evening by joking and talking about various stuff, and Uchi loved to tease Miharu a lot by flirting with Koyama. Of course Miharu knew it was only joking and just laughed for Uchi’s craziness. Akane didn’t say much during the dinner, in fact she was feeling nervous esp. every time her eyes met Ryo’s eyes. Yamapi noticed that, he often caught her starring at Ryo and wondered about that. “Does she like him?” he thought.

Later, Miharu and Akane excused themselves to the ladies toilet. Soon after they left, Yamapi whispered to Koyama, ”I think Akane likes Ryo, she has been starring at him all night long.”

“Ehh, are you sure? I didn’t notice she has a crush on Ryo!” surprised Koyama and forgot to low his tone.

“Who has crush on me?” asked Ryo curiously. “Baka!” grumbled Yamapi and gave Koyama a whack on his head.

“Gomen Pi, I can’t help it!” regretted Koyama.

“Yes, who? Who?” added Uchi.

“Ok, Yamapi thought Akane has a crush on Ryo!” declared Koyama.

“Koyama!” protested Yamapi.

“Ehh, that mute girl? Well, she’s kinda cute, I don’t mind dating her!” smiled Ryo.

“Ergh, that girl has a bad taste, she should pick me over him! I’m more good looking!” joked Uchi.

“Yeah, but you have no muscles dude!” teased Ryo.

“Oi oi, stop it! The girls are back!” said Koyama as he saw them walking back to the table. Yamapi was trying hard to act normal again, he felt a bit jealous about how Akane seemed to be interested with Ryo and annoyed for what Ryo said about her. Deep inside, he knew that he likes her.

“What’s so interesting? Talking about us?” smiled Miharu.

“Yeah, we were discussing how to steal Koyama from you!” teased Uchi again. They all laughed and continued ordering desserts. Koyama paid the dinner, he made agreement with Yamapi before the dinner and said it was his turn to treat the Kansai duo that night. They were waiting for taxis in front of the restaurant, Koyama and Yamapi didn’t drive that day.

“Uhm, my house is not far from here, I better walking home.” said Akane softly when they were discussing who will take home who. Uchi left earlier as he had a promise to meet his friends.

“Ehh, are you sure? You can share taxi with Yamapi, his house is in the same direction as yours.” worried Miharu.

Before Yamapi said anything, Ryo’s voice came out, “I can company you, Akane. It’s not safe for a girl to walk home alone.”

“Ryo-chan is right! He can find taxi near your house.” said Koyama.

“Demo…” Akane tried to protest and said that she didn’t mind walking home alone.

“No BUT, we better get going now, bye guys! Thanx for the dinner, see you two tomorrow!” as he grabbed Akane’s hand and waved to them with another hand.

“Aww, Ryo is really sweet! I can feel something will happen between two of them.” sighed Miharu after they saw them lost from their sight.

“Yeah, I think so! Oh, that’s our taxi! Bye Pi, see you tomorrow!” waved Koyama as he dragged Miharu to get inside the taxi.

“Yeah, Jya ne!” said Yamapi softly, he was really disappointed for not beating Ryo for taking her home. He also wondered how different she was at the dinner, no sharp tongue, as if she tried to be a different person in front of Ryo. She’s really confusing, and I can’t help stop thinking about her, sighed Yamapi. Then he stopped a taxi and went home.

The next morning, on Duet photo shoot for July issue, Kato Shigeaki was late again. The other NEWS members were worried that Ryo-chan would scold him again for his lateness. They heard the sound of shoes tapping in the floor, it was Shige tried his best to run as fast as he could. He entered the studio, tried to catch up his breath.

“GOMENASAI!” bowed Shige deeply. The rest NEWS members looked to Ryo and waited what will happen next.

“It’s OK, next time don’t be late again!” said Ryo calmly. And made the whole studio shocked hearing him saying that. It’s so NOT Ryo! Ryo that they knew would definitely scold Shige right away. Even Shige confused but he was relieved to be free from his evil tongue today.

“Thanx Master Ryo!” as he rushed walking to the make-up artist. He didn’t want the photographer and others to wait him any longer.

1 hour later …

The photo shoot has finished. Shige, Kusano, Massu and Tegoshi excused themselves to leave earlier since they still have interview with Duet reporter. The other 4 boys waited for their turn at the nearest café soon after they finished changing clothes.

“Ryo-chan, what’s wrong with you? You seem different today!” asked Koyama curiously.

“Yeah, we thought Shige would get scolded again!” added Uchi.

“Well, someone has changed me!” gushed Ryo.

“Ehhh who? Akane?” surprised Koyama.

“Why Akane? What happened last night after I left?” wondered Uchi.

“Ryo walked Akane home last night!” grinned Koyama.

“Yeah, Akane is a sweet girl! Suki desu! She’s very quiet at first, but after a while she was quite open with me and we talked endlessly until we reached her home.” said Ryo.

“So you are going out with her?” asked Uchi directly.

“Haha, that’s too early, but yes, I will see her again today after the interview.” smiled Ryo.

Yamapi overheard everything and didn’t say a word. He felt really jealous on how Ryo managed to win her heart. She only met him last night, frowned him in his mind. Koyama noticed his silent act but he only confirmed to him after Uchi and Ryo being called up for the interview.

“Hey Pi, daijoubu? You are really silent today! Something bother you?”

“Nah, I’m ok! Just feeling tired and bored with all the work and stuff.”

“Uhm, I think it’s not the issue, you have been silent ever since Akane name was showed up!”

“Akane? Why it has to do with her? I’m not even getting on well with her!”

“I know that you are interested with her, I also wonder how come Akane was easily connected with Ryo-chan, while it took me a whole month to make her talk to me like a normal person.”

“I’m not interested with her!” denied Yamapi with a high tone, then he lower it down, “I’m just tired, that’s all.”

“Ok ok, wakarimashita!” gave up Koyama. He still wanted Yamapi to be more open with him, but he will give him more time. Also he concerned about Akane, she sounded different. He knew her well, she’s quite complex, sometimes she’s sweet and caring, and sometimes she’s cold and rude, as if she’s having a double personalities. But one thing he was sure of, Akane wouldn’t be friendly that easily with any guy that she knew in short time, unlike Ryo’s case. She seemed having issue on trusting people and keep distance from them, he thought. Koyama was still fighting his mind until he heard a staff called him and Yamapi for their turn for interview.

2 weeks later …

Yamapi was busy with his studies and work, also he tried his best to avoid meeting Akane. He still wasn’t sure about his feeling towards her, plus he knew that she’s dating Ryo, it would hurt him to see her. He tried to concentrate on his studies, and his biggest weakness is English. He almost failed on this subject, therefore he submitted an application for a tutorial. Today is the first day, he sighed.

He entered room no.501, and saw the girl who supposed to be his tutor was already there, but he could only see her back side, he walked to her and was surprised when he finally saw her face! It’s Akane! And she was surprised to see him also!

“What are you doing here?” asked Yamapi rudely.

“I volunteer myself to be an English tutor and I also never expected to have you as my student.” said Akane in tired tone. “It’s up to you now, you can go and be a coward for running from this tutorial or stay here and get your grade in English better.” she added.

She has a point, spoke Yamapi to himself. He decided to stay, as he needed this tutorial so badly or else he would be failed on English. He sat in front of her and they started the tutorial soon after. Akane is a good tutor, she’s actually very patient on him, she explained everything slowly and made sure Yamapi understood everything before continued to the next level.

2 hours later …

“Whoah, I never expected studying English would be so fun like this! You should replace my Professor!” burst out Yamapi.

“Uhm, thanx for the compliment, but I’m not that old!” joked Akane. Yamapi was surprised to hear that, he thought Akane was a very serious person, but now she seemed comfortable to be near him, and he also felt the same thing. They laughed and decided to have lunch together.

Day by day, they surprisingly became closer than ever, like a good long time friends. She’s actually very nice girl, he thought. Thanx to the tutorial, his English grade is getting better. And Akane was happy to help him. They spent many times together, it surprised Koyama and Miharu too, but they relieved to see both of them finally getting on well.

Four of them supposed to hang out at the usual café, when they saw Ryo stood near the gate with hat and sunglasses. He smiled and opened his sunglasses when they walked to him. “Hello all, I’m coming to pick up Akane!” said Ryo. Miharu and Koyama looked at each other, they didn’t know that Akane and Ryo are still together, they thought they only together when Ryo was in town. “Did they have long distance relationship?” thought them.

“Ryo-chan! Why you didn’t tell me that you are coming?” surprised Akane.

“This is a surprise visit, don’t you happy to see me?” smiled Ryo and made Akane blushed. Yamapi saw everything with jealously, he didn’t say anything tho.

“Let’s go Akane, I will be in town for couple of days only, we have to make good use of it. Bye all.” excused Ryo as he waved his hand to them and grabbed Akane’s hand later on. They walked out and left the other parties full of questions in their minds,

“I didn’t know they are still together!” said Miharu excitedly soon after the couple were out of their sight.

“Yeah, I never expected that too, maybe they still contacted to each other by mail or something.” guessed Koyama.

“Ore, ore kaeru!” said Yamapi all the sudden.

“Ehhh, why? You supposed to join us at the café!” said Miharu disappointedly.

“Gomen, I just remember that I have test tomorrow, and I must study now!” excused Yamapi and left them. He was disappointed that Akane never told him that she and Ryo are still together, and of course most of the reason for his childish act that day because of his jealously towards Ryo.

Chapter 5

After Ryo’s visit to their campus, Yamapi acted strangely toward Akane, he didn’t come at the tutorial schedules and always avoided her every time he saw her around. He never hung out with Koyama and Miharu too, and made all them of the worried for his behavior. He wanted to forget her.

Akane wondered about that too, she thought her friendship with Yamapi was quite close already, and now she felt lonely without him, she decided to check what’s wrong with him. She saw him stood in the bulletin board and yelled, “Yamapi, I need to talk to you!” as she run towards him. Yamapi heard that but he walked off.

Akane run and reached his hand, he let go of her hand and crossed his hands on his chest. Akane took a deep breath, she couldn’t understand the change of him.

“Ok, what’s so important for you to talk to me, Haneda?” asked Yamapi rudely. Akane shocked to hear him calling her first name, as if they are totally strangers now.

“Oh, so now we are no longer friends that you have to call me by first name?”

“Well, friends never keep secrets to each others, you never told me that you are still together with Ryo!”

“What? Why it has to do with Ryo-chan? Let him out of this!”

“Sorry, I have a class to run now!” ended Yamapi. It hurt him more hearing her calling him Ryo-chan, he didn’t want to hear anything about their relationship.

“Yamashita! Chotto matte! We have to talk!” said Akane desperately. But he didn’t care for it and still walked off. Akane stood there with tears now. She already trust him, made friends with him, and deep inside Akane knew her feeling for him maybe more than just friends. She always felt comfortable near him and they have a lot of things in common. And now she lost him.

Yamapi sat in the beach with annoyed look, he didn’t want to be there at all, it was the day for NEWS to celebrate their single Kibou~Yell that reached no.1 in Oricon Chart. Their manager set up a private party at the beach, and they could invite their close friends. He knew that Ryo supposed to bring Akane along, that’s why he didn’t want to join the celebration, but his manager already warned him that he must be there, he’s the leader of the group. Tho he always thought Koyama was the real leader, his manager convinced him that the group needed him.

He isolated himself from the crowd, he saw his group mates having so much fun with their close friends and families. And he finally saw Akane with Ryo beside her, she’s looking so pretty with the beautiful beach dress. But she didn’t look happy, he knew her well, it’s the same sorrow face that he always saw in the coffee shop before. He wondered why, but then he shook his head, and thought, “It’s not my business anymore, I’m over her!”

He continued watching the sea, he always has a strong bond with beach ever since he was young. He enjoyed spending hours in the beach watching the waves, the blue sky and playing with the sand. He didn’t know how long he had isolated himself from the group until he heard noise near the barbeque table.

“Where is Akane? I haven’t seen her in for a while!” panicked Ryo.

“She told me that she wanted to go to the toilet, but it’s been half an hour already.” worried Miharu.

“Try call her phone!” suggested Koyama calmly. Ryo hurriedly opened his keitai and start calling her, but he only heard the operator message saying the number is inactive. He closed his keitai in frustration. Yamapi tried the same thing and also only heard the operator message as well. They all gathered and decided to spread around searching for her. They started to call her name continuously and still no respond from her. Yamapi looked around and his eyes glimpsed someone in the edge of the rocks quite far from the place he stood at. “Could it be Akane?” wondered him. He run to the rocks and when he almost reached it, he was sure it was her!

“AKANEE, ABUNAI YO! PLEASE COME BACK!” called Yamapi. Akane turned back and screamed, “DON’T GET NEAR ME! I WILL JUMP!” Her threat made Yamapi back off a bit, he knew that he must calm her down.

“Akane, please! Can we talk? Don’t do anything stupid!” said him softly.

“You don’t understand me, Yamashita! You don’t!” cried her.

“I do understand you, Akane! Ever since I starred at you daily in the coffee shop 4 months ago! I knew you well! Please come back!”

“No, you don’t understand me! You don’t know what I have gone thru!” her voice started to shake. Yamapi walked slowly to the rocks trying to reach her.

“Then make me understand, I will listen to you!”

“Stop! Don’t get near me! You didn’t want to listen to me before, you hate me!” sobbed her.

“No, I don’t hate you, I’m here for you! Please Akane, reach my hand!” begged Yamapi while pushed out his hand to reach her. Akane back off, she’s only few inches left in the edge of the rocks, one more movement, she would fall down to the sea.

“Akane, suki desu!” screamed Yamapi. Akane stunned at his confession, she stood there silently. “I don’t care that you are with Ryo now, I like you, and I don’t want to lose you!” added him. He finally let out his feeling to her, he didn’t care if Ryo and others heard what he just said down there. He only care for Akane now, for her fragile heart, her complex personalities, her only! He finally reached her, he pulled her body into his embrace, he hold her head and Akane cried in his shoulder.

“Sshhh, everything is fine now! You have me now! We have to go down, everyone is worried about you!” calmed Yamapi. Akane stop crying, Yamapi wiped her tears with his hands. She nodded and they walked down the rocks, he still held her tight as if he was afraid she would run away from him again.

The crowds down there were relieved to see Yamapi managed to convince Akane. They cheered and screamed, “Yatta!” also clapping their hands when they finally reached the beach again. Even Ryo smiled and he walked to Yamapi and Akane.

“Pi, thanx for saving her! I knew all along she never had feeling for me, I think I’m only a substitute for someone in her eyes, she always talked about you when she was with me, please take care of her from now onwards.” said Ryo with big heart.

“I’m sorry Ryo-chan! I didn’t mean to hurt you.” cried Akane.

“It’s ok, Akane! You have a better person beside you now.” smiled Ryo.

“Arigatou Ryo-chan!” said Yamapi, he was touched to see Ryo’s big heart. Then Ryo lead the crowds to leave them alone, as he knew there’s a lot of things they have to talk to.

“I’m sorry! I was selfish and childish!” said Akane to Yamapi soon after the crowds left them.

“Ssshh, don’t say that! Now please be honest with me, tell me everything.” begged Yamapi.

“I … I don’t know where to start … I had a boyfriend before, we were great together, and we have gone out for almost a year, we even planned to get married soon after we get graduated from Keio University.” Yamapi surprised to hear this, but he tried to calm down and softly asked, “And?”

“Early this year, he got hit by a motorcycle and died in front of my eyes. I really loved him, I couldn’t bear of losing him.” cried Akane as she continued with her story.

“I tried to forget him, I asked to be transferred to Meiji University because I want to continue my life. But I couldn’t! He always appeared in my dreams, and his last sentence before he died in my arms was always haunted me!” now Yamapi understood of her behavior. He hold her and said, “Ssshhh, shinpai shinaide, I will always here beside you.”

“I was in denial, I couldn’t trust people, the only thing that made me calm was reading, it helped me concentrate with my life.”

“Ahhh, that’s why you completely ignored me at the coffee shop 4 months ago!” chuckled Yamapi remembered about the days at the coffee shop.

“Coffee shop? Oh, so you were the one who always got people asked autographs for? Sorry I didn’t noticed that, I heard everything but when I got engrossed with my books, I didn’t care with anything else around me.” blushed Akane.

“Mou, so that’s the reason, I was like how come I lose my charms in front of this girl?” joked Yamapi.

“Ack gomen, I didn’t mean that! Ohyes, one more thing, my late boyfriend, he looked like Ryo-chan! When I saw him for the first time in that restaurant, I almost died in shock, it’s like he’s come alive again in front of me.” Yamapi nodded, he knew that there must be a reason why Akane was interested in Ryo, but never expected that it’s because he looks like her late boyfriend.

“I feel really guilty every time I was with Ryo-chan, because I tried to make him as the substitute of my late boyfriend, even I know my heart is actually fall for someone else.”

“For me right?” smiled Yamapi.

“Yes! Yamashita-kun ga daisuki desu!” blushed Akane.

“Ore mo, kimi no koto, daisuki desu!” he hold both of her hands now, he looked into her eyes deeply. He leant forward and kissed her softly. It was their first kiss ever, warm and tenderly kiss. When he released the kiss, Akane opened her eyes, and smiled. It was the most beautiful smile that Yamapi ever saw from her. Now they both sat in the sand, with Yamapi holding her tightly, they watched the sunset, and cherish the time that they will spend together.

Pretty Diary 1

2006-05-01T14:39:00.000+08:00

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are grey
You never know dear
How much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

So let the sunshine in
Face it with a grin
Smilers never lose
And frowners never win
So let the sunshine in
Face it with a grin
Open up your heart
And let the sunshine in